I have always had anxiety but it has hit me hard this time that I'm put on lexapro. So to start off what has been happening. In mid September, as I was doing homework I itched my neck and then found a slight lump. Lost 4 days of sleep over it and had a few nightmares. Finally decided to get it check by an ENT and then sent to get an ultrasound. ENT said the lump she felt was my sternocleidomastoid muscle which was slightly bigger than my left side. Thank God my results are good and I was so relieved! Fast forward to a week later, I started getting random hot flashes and chills on and off for about a week which eventually lead me to more symptoms such as nausea, vertigo, uncontrollable trembling/shaking, sweating, chills, ect one Saturday. I would get like that everyday ever since so then I decided to take myself to urgent care one Tuesday to check what's going on. They took my vitals and ran some bloodwork and results were perfect, expect that they found slight blood in my urine which alarmed me! It's still on the back of my mind. But the doctor said everything is normal and not to worry. She referred me to psychiatrist and told me to get help for panic disorder. She also gave me Atarax to take short term only when I felt like I was going to panic again. After that I still kept getting these symptoms without any known triggers. The next Saturday night, I ended up in the ER with the same panic symptoms but 100x worse. That night I thought I was dying. Due to the trembling, vertigo, nausea and lack of counciouness, I demanded at CT scan of my head because I thought I had a brain tumor. They ran some bloodwork also so CT scan and bloodwork was normal. I was sooo relieved and happy!! Then up until now which is a week later, I noticed I lost 8 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks which scares me. My fiancé says it's due to my anxiety and that I'm of eating enough which is true. I have completely lost interest in food. I lost my appetite completely and if I try to eat, I feel like I'll get sick. I read up that it's caused my an anxious stomach, an anxiety symptom. Also, I have sudden bone pain in my left leg, left rib cage, and left arm. Now I think I may have bone cancer due to this sudden pain. The pain comes and goes whether I'm laying down or moving. I also have a lump on my left rib cage which I found over a year ago and didn't think anything of it until now. I am trying not to worry but I am going to make an appointment with an internist to explain these symtoms to him and hopefully get a peace of mind again.
On Wednesday I saw a therapist and we just talked and went over what's going on. She gave me some tips on how to relax and get my mind off of things.
On Friday I went to a walk in behavioral health clinic for a full diagnoses and intensive therapy. They diagnosed me with GAD, health anxiety, and panic disorder. The psychiatrist prescribed me Lexapro 10mg and I may start today.
I just feel that lexapro might not help the fact that I think I have bone cancer. So I don't know what to do anymore....