hi. I'm new to this but I have felt good reading about other people's issues. I have varying degrees of panic. I take Ativan for acute attacks but otherwise just live with it. I am in a multi-day panic session now. It started on Monday when going back to work and I have been trying to keep it calm with meds and sleep. I have the tingling in the body, the feelings of dread, sudden thoughts of suicide. It's been years that I have been living wiht symptoms off an on. (mostly off, thank goodness, but when they come they can stay for days or weeks at a time). The thing that bothers me most is unwanted thoughts about suicide or self harm. I have no interest in either ending my life or hurting myself but these thoughts seem to come from nowhere and, paradoxically, can actually calm me down. Does anyone else have that kind of thing?
I aren't on mess but I have horrible thoughts about everything including ending my life I even felt excited when I thought of it but no way intended on doing it and it freaked me out so much I know where I would go and everything accept I have anxiety so bad about my health ext why would I kill myself or even be able to do it just another anxious thought trying to keep your anxiety going if you know your not going to do it that's fine if you feel you are then make sure to get help but anxiety can do this do you have depression as well my depression was really high at the time of these thoughts though I still have them most days xx
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Hi Anthony:
I think that what you have is a fear of your THOUGHTS about suicide rather than you might be prone to committing suicide. When you have a fear of thinking about suicide then that usually means that you would never do it because you find it repulsive. Many of these fear thoughts you have begin with "what if" or "I wonder if" which means you are testing yourself to see IF you are still anxious.
Many times we want to check on the status of our fear/anxiety. And when we are already in an anxiously sensitive state the checking or testing thoughts will always fail the test. You can't stop these 'testing' thoughts but you can ignore them as they are just the anxious mind searching for any answer. Then let them go...without analysis. The analysis only creates more worrying which is more tension and stress.