I have what I consider a perfect life. A loving boyfriend, two great best friends, parents and family who care about me, good job, and 4.0 GPA in college, nothing in my past that could make me feel hopeless and depressed. It comes on randomly and lasts for a few days. During those times it's almost like I am a different person and say things and do things that I get embarrassed about when I "snap" out of it. Then when I don't feel that way, I feel happy and hopeful and excited about my future. The lows are just so low, I have thought many times about suicide but I would never want to hurt the ones that love me. This has been going on for five years now and I've just learned to deal with it. Does anybody have the same feelings or know anything that could help? Thanks!
Hi julia 28245
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
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Patient
Hi Julia,
The lows you experience could be your subconscious running in the background getting you prepared for if/when your life may face a hurdle or two to overcome.
No one's life runs perfect, but we can be very happy with the way things are going. You say that there are no skeletons in the cupboard, good.
Please don't dwell on suicide, I tried a couple of times In my past, 14 years old and 32 years old, it hurts a lot of people you normally wouldn't hurt. I am 67 years old now and have just learned from my 45 year old daughter that my mother, her grandmother, used to "loan" her and my son out to men whenever we left them in her care, and frightened them so much that they dared not tell us. Now my life has fallen apart, my dear wife is frantic with guilt and I can not fathom out where it all went so wrong.
Love and live your life-it's very precious.
Mike.
Hi I am wondering if this could be related to your periods? Does it seem to come on about that time? If you are older maybe it is to do with the change of life? x
I am 18 years old, and I am on the nexplanon birth control implant so my periods are very irregular but it did used to happen around the beginning of my period before I started birth control.
Hi mike09523
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
Kindest regards
Patient
Have you talked to your doctor about this they might be able to help you. At the very least they might be able to refer you to a psychiatrist or psychologist.
Hi Julia - it's nice to read that you have so much in your life - and a whole life ahead of you as well. I would suggest you consult your doctor, describe exactly what has been happening. Get a full work up on your psychological and your physical health. Don't despair. Don't suffer in silence. Act. You will find the answer. Best of luck to you and your future.