Hi,
I've had anxiety for a very long time and now it is affecting my down time (video games). I really enjoy video games specifically mmorpg games which are games that you can play for long time and build your character up it's something that takes my mind off of my anxiety, well as of late I have been unable to enjoy my game because I feel I need to earn everything I do otherwise it feels like my whole character is a failure in my game a lot of people use bots and buy accounts and I want to earn it and be proud of it, I'm like this with other things but not to the extent of this game which Il spend months on an account then just trash it and start over whenever I feel I didn't earn it, and example of me not earning it in my eyes would be like what happened yesterday I clicked on a funky link and was scared somebody keylogged my computer and logged on to my file and played on it therefore any xp they gained would mean anything passed that is pointless cause I didn't earn every part, it may seem silly that this is just a game but this is really something that helps calm my anxiety because I'm able to just relax and now this is happening please help me straighten this out
Thanks
Another reason I know I'm being an idiot but can't help it is that after all that happened yesterday I logged back in and was in the same spot I was when I logged out yet just the thought that somebody may have been on it is bothering me it's very annoying
It seems like you're having some sort of OCD. I advise you to start some counselling and explain your perfection issues further.
I am kinda a perfectionist myself but not to that extent. You need to do something about it, and realise that no one can be perfect
You need to play these games less, spend some time outside. You are attributing too much importance to these games, and becoming obsessive. It's as simple as doing it less and finding other healthier things to do with at least some of your time. I know you won't want to do this of course, but that's your choice, carry on and feel worse, stop and change and feel better, totally your call, noone will force you
Ryan
You are OCD I feel and I would expect you to talk to your GP, and He will try and help.
Playing computer games in such an intensive way will not help you and your health problem. You need to move on and restrict yourself from gaming for a period of time each day.
Try going for a walk, go to the Gym or attend a Nightclass, something that will distract you from your time gaming.
Personally I feel you are in danger of relating to a certain computer game and you will end up playing the game in your own mind. You will become obsessive and that will cause further problems
BOB