Hi Emilylou,
Hey, not ramblings.....rapid thoughts!
I think you need to be stable on your XL.
As I have said I became convinced that it was making me feel more ill, more down, more depressed, hence the reason I decided to stop it.
I never took my XL in the morning. Venlaflaxine, on the dose you were on, 225mg, has a sedative effect and I couldn't function in the day on it. I am a teacher and it is nightmare breing tired, having a 3 year old and having 30 adolescent kids to control, hence the reason why my Psych at the beginning told me to take it at night to get a good nights sleep. I cannot understand the logic of being told t take such a dose in the day!
Sometimes, as with some things in life you have to bite the bullet. There may never be a good time to make the switch. Splitting the dose of normal acting would be counter productive as you'd get that rebound I have talked about. It won't last all day. You need to be clear about that and be prepared.
Try having the sudofed or the benedryl acrivastine 3 times per day. It is chemically similar to the Ven and stops/helps stop the crash you seem so worried about. OR go ask for the prozac to support you. You have done really well not to updose during your withdrawl. I was determined not to as well and didn't. Be proud.
Finally, I have to ask. Is it you that wants off this or is it your doctor?
It has to come from you.
There is no reason why you couldn't stay on 37.5mg, a clinically ineffective dose, but a crutch for you, for the rest of your life (unless you want a another baby i guess !). BOTH my Psychs said that it is not a medication that causes other issues in the body, but the doc should do routine blood tests to check Liver function etc.
When i was down to my last crumb of Ven in my withdrawl, I knew it wasn't doing me any good clinically, but to me I needed it at that time and took it for over a week before I decided to not have any.
That was a big day and a big decision. I was not pressured by my Psych to drop it.........she knew i needed my safety blanket, my net to get through the day.
The switch will be hard, it will be a shock to your body and you will have a reaction. Thats a fact, bit being prepared is half the battle. Have a plan, have a big bag of alternatives to support, have your supplements, have a support at home and work and try when YOU are ready.
I planned my drop like a military operataion. My motto is forewarned is forearmed ..............that little pill wasn't going to beat me!
Keep going and please, don't apologise for asking people, whoever for help. Helen x