Hi guys I am James 26 year old male. I have posted on here before but I am struggling so much and my doctor is not willing to help me no more as he believes it is all mental however I know my own body and nothing seems to be working as it used to or as it should. I have many symptoms and feel like I am struggling to stay alive and that I am dying of a late stage disease. This may sound dramatic but I will explain why. I have been like this every single day for the last 8 months now. I am always extremely fatigued along with my body feeling really really hot. I feel confused and disconnected to point it feels like my brain is shutting down. I have been bedridden for months and cannot even drive anymore as always when driving feel like my body is drifting away. I am very intolerant to noise and my ears and nose is blocked even though there is nothing in there. I am constipated and my penis is dead to the point i do not get an erection anymore. My body is so weak that i literally cannot handle anything apart from sitting in bed. I always feel dizzy on my 2 foot and very disorientated. I do not know what to do anymore and live is starting to become a struggle instead of an enjoyment. My doctor does not want to help but could you guys please let me know what other tests I can do as I strongly believe I have cancer and i do not say this to offend anyone. Not even medicine works on my body and thats when i started to think something is serious. I love the sun and now i am intolerable to sun. I do not feel my body do not feel breeze hitting my skin. I do not feel adreline like my body literally has given up on me. At night i have very poor vision and i am mental confusion with no relief. I have lost all appetite and only eat because i have too. Below are the tests i have done. Blood tests: thyroid function test, vitamin D level, serum ferritin, liver function test, urea & electrolytes, bone profile, ESR, Differential white cell count, full blood count, CRP, testosterone, cortisol, complement with C3 & C4, antinuclear antibodies - all normal. Head MRI with contrast - all normal. Chest CT scan with constrast - all normal. Stomach CT scan with constrast - all normal. Pelvis CT scan with constrast - all normal. Nasoendoscopy - all normal. Colonoscopy - all normal. Endoscopy - all normal. ultrasound of testicles - all normal. ultrasound of urinary tract - all normal. Chest xray - all normal. Urine sample - all normal. 3x ECG - all normal. 8x blood pressure - all normal. 2x testicle examination. 2x anal examination. Dentist check up - all normal. Eye test - all normal.
James I’m not sure there’s any test left. You have had them all. Even if there were more tests, i’m pretty sure you would still want more . if you’ve been suffering with the symptoms for the past eight months, then you don’t have anything that is terminal. it would have shown up in your testing and you would be extremely ill by now. Just because you have symptoms does not mean that you are sick!
I truly feel that you have a severe depression going on combined with anxiety about your health. of course I cannot make a diagnosis but everything you say sounds exactly like that.
being intolerant to noise, poor vision, constipation, feeling detached from your body, loss of appetite, confusion, fatigue, dizziness and any other symptoms I missed are extremely common with severe depression.
All your testing was normal. That is a fact.
what is happening is that you are believing false statements that your mind is sending out. What your mind is telling you is not based on fact or reality. It’s only based on emotion which is fear. You cannot count on that.
Don’t believe everything that you think!
you see you believe you have cancer. What would be the evidence? If you say it’s your symptoms, those are not proof of cancer. The proof would be in the tests that you had already had which were normal. Your mind is telling you cancer. But our thoughts are not based on reality. Remember that.
by ruminating on all of this you are making the symptoms continue and get worse. You need some support with this .
have You ever had counseling? you need that support right now. It really helps to vent to somebody who understands and who can help you. It’s very difficult to do on your own. That would be my suggestion. get the support otherwise you’re going to drive yourself crazy for no reason. feel better soon
take a look at therapy in a nutshell on YouTube. She gives some great short talks on what you are going through.
No i completely understand what you are saying but i do feel so ill. I literally cannot do anything. Yesterday I was taken to hospital in an ambulance as I collapsed. I drove 2 mins down the road and had to come back home as had a really weird sensation and as soon as i got home was having a bad out of body experience. I literally do not feel normal. The reason why I am scared it is cancer is because my ears are clogged and find it hard to breath through nose. Also my body so weak I am intolerant to alcohol and cigarette. To top all this off no medication works for me or gives me relief. I have had 3 sessions of counselling and take citalpram but nothing is helping me.
james i wish I had an extensive workup such as yourself. your probably having anxiety. I have the some of the same symptoms. I wake up with a sense of dread from my stomach to my extremities. Its been pretty much constant since May and 24/ this past month. I feel like I am dying. I too also pretty much bed ridden. Im going to try to make my self do things like go on a small walk. i fear passing out because i feel so light headed the thing is I havent passed out yet....so thats what im going to tell my self as I go for a walk. just 10 mins. i have body pains everywhwre in my body.
Hey Tiffany thank you for the reply. It is such a crazy feeling if you do not mind me asking what symptoms are you suffering from and what tests have you done?
the number one mental symptom i have is I dont feel like myself. Im either dying or going crazy...my main phyical symptoms .are shortness of breath, lightheaded, body aches and tingling. extreme fatigue. other symptoms come and go but these kind of stay the same. i wake up with a gut wrneching doom that something dreadful is happening. i have no appetite or thirst only eat and drink because i have too. i have only have a chest xray and basic blood work. and ekgs. ALL NORMAL. my dr will not do anything else and referred me to therapy. said its anxiety. Im a shell of what I was and I cant shake this feeling that im.dying. I have no sex drive as well. I just went on a 10 min walk and felt lightheaded the whole time but didnt pass out. I litterally stay in my bed 22 hours a day. I too doubt its anxiety but if its anxiety why doesnt it stop. my biggest fears is collapsing over dead currently worried about a blood clot. because of the aches in my leg. also have pain in my left shouldder and chest and worry it could be a pulmonary embolism. ive lost 10 lbs in a month and the back my head i fear cancer as well. I wish I could just feel normal again. i wish you could too. I started therapy this week the first appt. was just intake so nothing of value. I hope you feel better soon. im.going to try and make my self do things each day and force myself out of bed you should too.
This is the thing why are we suffering 24/7 it is just crazy and makes me thing if there is no break is it something else. I literally cannot remember anymore. Sometimes i do sit and think i have had alot of high end testing so surely that makes count for something but i do not do anything that i used too and i used to be very active. I just do not like how it is pinned of anxiety when they do not find anyhting. end of day we know our bodies and cancer can happen anywhere in the body.
yes mine is 24/7. i wake up drenched in sweat throughojt the night. however I have been around someone that was terminal and they didnt even have enough energy to be fearful or type. and its quick and progressive. so i hope that brings you some hope... it doesnt last 8 months but weeks. I wish I could just get one good day though and not feel this way your extensive workup should bring you a little peace that you do not have a terminal illness. Im going to get up and make my self get out of bed everyday for the next week. ill update you daily if it helps any as well as do positive Affirmations. if its anxiety im living to die and i dont want to live like this any more. all i think about is dying and death being around the corner.
yeah same and i also do wake up sweating and feel clammy throughout the day. That is what worries me like i am so fatigued that i have no energy, adrenline or fear because body just no working. And yeah a part of me is happy as doc says that would of defo picked up something if i was late stage but the worrying thing is you could have cancer anywhere in the body. At night is the worst as the vision just does not seem right and i never remember falling asleep real strange. Yeah we can both update each other daily i will also try going on walks starting tomorrow. If you do not mind me asking how old are you?
im 34 years old.
if the dr has assured you they would pick up anything late stage then please be rest assured. until you have late stage cancer you dont usually feel sick. its usually contained to abnormal lump, a tumor that hasnt spread.
thank you jjust worrying cant go out or on holiday. such a weird feeling is your ears or nose clogged?
Yes they are. do you feel unually cold. I live in Texas and cant stand the heat and normally keep my ac on 69 at 72 im freezing my feet and hands are ice cold. yet ill wake up sweating even though im cold..
So I went for the 10 min walk. I got up and i actually cooked something for dinner forced myself to eat it and drink. im now forcing myself to lay on the couch instead of the bed to be a part of the household. I feel worse and super empty inside and more disconnected from my self. my mind is trying to go to my fears of dying. im going go continue to push through it though.
I used to feel cold but these days body is so hot and clammy
well done that is really good. i am just scared to do anything. last night woke up at 4am left arm hurting and bad vision in one eye. i honestly do not know what to do. i can not even call doctor as he will refer me to a mental health doctor
also i am completely disconnected from my body as feel like i am in survival mode instead of alive. have you tried contacting your doctor again?
my dr referred me to mental health. i too have had a bad night. i feel horrible
I ve been having shortness of breath amd the dreaded feeling. I just dont understand what this could be.. I dont understand how this is anxiety. I have a pulse oximeter that I wear often and last night and this morning it kept droping to 93 when my normal is 97. Im freaking out!! I seriously feel like im going to die and the drs are missing something.