Hi all. So I'm on citalopram and have been since Friday 29th August (starting on 10mg, 20mg for about 2 weeks now) and today is by far the worst day so far. I feel totally hopeless - almost suicidal which isn't like me at all. I'm going on holiday tomorrow yet I'm still in my pajamas and haven't packed a thing or arranged anything. Everything is an effort, even going to the kitchen to get water. I'm taking amitriptyline at night to help me sleep but for 3 days that hasn't worked so I've been reduced to taking zopiclone. I'm trying so so hard to tell myself it will get better but feel it's a real struggle at the moment. While I've been positive most days, today I'm finding it pretty much impossoble. I just want to hide away. For the first time the day has flown by, and not in a good way. Most days drag because of the anxiety but today just feels like I wonder why I even got out of bed because I'll be going to bed soon.
Although I'm trying to stay calm and tell myself alot of this will be side effects, I'd really appreciate some positive advice, vibes and success stories to get me through this difficult time.
Thank you x
I'm struggling at the minute aswell so don't want to make you feel worse but you can have a massive hug from me and know I and the rest of us know how you feel and are here for you 
xx
Hi,it sounds like it is probably just side effects, but sometimes having the pressure of having to do something makes things worse too. Although it's something fun, it is still hard because it's something you have to do that you can't hide from. From an advice point i would say write a list of the things you absolutely have to do and plan it out. Then reward yourself as you cross things off. Nothing big but anything that relaxes you; a cup of tea, a bath, even just playing a favourite song. Something that takes your mind off what you have to do for a bit.
Hope this helps and that you know you're not alone
Roxi xx
I know how you feel as I get terribly anxious and stressed organising to go away as well. I cope with by making a list of what I have to do then cross them off one by one.
I also worry about forgetting something in my case so I make a list of everything to put in and I mean everything. The day of travel I get up, have a shower, breakfast etc. then start packing coz everything like toiletories and make up can go in. I then tick them off my list when I put them in my case. I find this helpful and it does work for me. It might for you. Have a great holiday. xx
I just came back from holiday yesterday... I had an amazing week. I stopped taking the amitriptyline and was able to sleep all week, albeit broken but I wasn't worrying about it at all! I just eventually drifted back off. Was feeling very confident and then..
Our flight came in late last night, 1am. I'd had a few restless doses on the plane but thought I'd be fine when I got home. However last night was one of the worst nights since my anxiety started. Its like I've now come home and everything that happened the last week wasn't real! I feel ok today which is good i suppose, usually after having a night like that I would be in a state all day the next day, crying, shaking. So I suppose it is working.
These ups and downs eh!
I'm back at work on Monday so I'm going to see how I get on tonight without the amitriptyline. i just dont' want to rely on them AND citalopram!
Anyway would be good to know how you're all doing x