eaching again for help. My symptoms started 3 months ago after an outing that included drinks with a coworker who brought up horrible time in my life that happaned 6 yrs ago; which included a toxic relationship,physical illness & potential loss of my job. Ever since that conversation my life & dreams have been shattered. The following day after hanging out with him, i developed severe brain fog and its been down hill since then. My life was amazing prior to that conversation. The words that triggered these feelings were:
Me: “I went crazy for that woman”
Him: “Were you suicida”?
The word suicidee got me really scared. Everything went downhill from there and I began to focus my mind on saying “I went crazy for that woman” instead of fighting off the original word that created all these feelings and symthoms which was the word “ Suicidee”. What can I do guys?. I’m extremely scared of these feelings that are going on in my head 24/7 and the feeling of being crazy which I can’t convince my self otherwise. Please help guys!!! Do I need medication or what can I do?
Symthoms:
Heart rate: my average heart rate is between 100-150bpm
Brain fog 24/7 Derealization(Worst at night, when trying to sleep)
Weight loss- 30 pounds so far
lack of sleep- sleeping around 3-4 hours a night
Dizziness all the time
Cold feet 24/7
Feeling like i'm losing or lost my mind
Actions taken to improve my life:
Been to therapy 6 times already.
A lot prayers to God
Well this is actually a good thing because now you know what triggers your anxiety. You have to rewire your thought process and it takes time and effort. Once you learn your negative thoughts, you can work with them. First realize it is only a thought and you are not your thoughts. Everyone has silly, happy, weird, scary thoughts. Most people just let them come in and leave. You took that thought and rolled with it...............you probably in your mind told yourself...oh what a horrible time...what if that happens again...that felt terrible. by doing this is set your mind and body up for anxiety. Now that you know that. Change everything. Wake up with a positive mantra: pick your own. Something like: this is my day. I will to my best today. I own this day. I can do anything I want. Anxiety will come and go. I can handle it. F my anxiety. Let the day begin. Then any time a negative thought comes fight it. Tell it (yourself) that it is not true. A thought my enter, like, what if I go crazy. Just tell yourself F**k that thought it is not going to happen it has never happen and it won't. Crazy is just doing the same thing and expecting different results. It is just a stupid thought. I am fine. I am better than fine. Everything in my body is healthy. My legs are amazing. I feel fantastic. ...................If you keep feeling your head with positive stuff, there is no room for the negative. Read positive things! Skip the internet to look up symptoms, instead do something fun.
I read a review once that a women posted saying a friend of hers harmed herself because of her chemical imbalance and I know people are trying to help but this comment made my anxiety spiral out of control, I was actually thinking I was depressed and that I wasint going to be here for much longer and I was going to leave my family behind, but that’s what anxiety does it triggers bad thoughts when stressed and can make you beleive something that’s not going to happen. I still have these clouded thoughts and it’s like I can’t put a good thought into my mind but I’m trying to make myself beleive everything will be ok and eventually I hope I start believing it. I’ve read a few comments on here and I think the best way is to let whatever your going through happen! If your getting a negative thought or feeling however bad just let it be and tell yourself nothing will happen and that your perfectly fine and it’s an affect of hightened anxiety and stress. As hard as it sounds try and get outside take your time and give yourself time for your body and mind to heal I promise you will get there!