I know how this anxiety started. This is going to sound really stupid but I can't help how my brain works. I got a message from a random person on Xbox a couple of days ago and I sent this person a reply the same moment. This morning I accidentally deleted the message and it's driving me crazy trying to remember what this person said to me.
I have been shaking all day thinking about it and almost passing out because of trying to remember what was in the message. Like I said I realise that this is a stupid reason to worry but I can't help it. Please help. I'm anxious over remembering things but it's never been this bad because usually you can just google things you forget. The feeling that I am having even as I write this down is the feeling of trying to remember something but before I could think more about it or google it time stops and that feeling is stuck with me. FOR MORE THAN 12 hours. ALL DAY.
As I write this I worry about waking up like this tomorrow. Does anxiety like this last forever until I resolve the issue which I fear I can't unless I somehow remember those words? Or will it get better through time.
Ok wait relax. What are you scared of? You are absolutely scared. Be honest what are you scared of right now? With the xbox thing. It was the trigger. Dont worry about your memory it doesnt function well when youre in fight of flight its busy thinking youre in danger,
I wamt you to know ifnthe other person wanted to re meassage they would. If it bugs you to have that intimate of a conversation or you cant stand talking to someone thru sbox then dont. Its nit an obligation. Its a stranger anyway. Nothing to fear. No danger. The person said something. Ok.you answered and deleted it. And if you didnt answer and delete no ine is thinking about it at all but you because i believe youre scared the person will be mad. Thats not on you and that person probably messages tons of people a day. Thats not reality. Its an xbox. You interact to play ga,es but nomobligation to chat or anything.
No amxiety like that does not stay like that. It scared you. Acknowledge the thoughts. Take it thru in your mimd slowly. Then dissmantle the fear. Dissmantle the thiughts because it scared you. You set up some scenario in your head but its not reality. There is no danger. You have no obligation at all what so ever. Dont personalize it. Its to play games..entertainment. That is its function.
Chris........ when you panic like that about a thought, acknowledge that you have that thought but then picture it floating away on some black cloud. Your anxious and fearfulthoughts are not part of reality. They are your mind going to the negative and you need to get control of that.
what really helps me are meditative audios found on YouTube. Look for the ones that deal with anxiety. There are many of them try some out and pick the ones you like. The first thing to do when you feel anxious this to calm down and deep breathe. These meditations are great and please try them!
I do realise at a logical level that nothing is going to happen to me. But I'm not understanding why I keep coming back to trying to remember a statement that probably isn't important as me thinking of a random sentence in my head. I have been obsessesing over this for a day now and I'm scared because I feel like I'm going to go insane. I only slept for around 3 hours last night and just got up to see how I feel. Not good.
I will definantly try the audio tonight. But what if this feeling doesn't go away? Have you ever had anything like this happen to you? Something stupid that you couldn't stop thinking about. I think I might be a little different because I knew what the statement was. Then I forgot. then I was mass deleting a couple days later and seen my reply back but didn't see their statement first so I deleted too fast to be able to get to the message and have a clear mind. You know that feeling you get when you have a tune in your head and you knew it once in your life but you would never know what it was or who sang it ever again. It's just there constantly in my head. I'm almost sweating righting this down now.
Nothing scared me in the sense of what the person said. It's just the fact I can't remember what they said. I have never felt like this before.