hello, ive scrolled roughly 80 pages of this forum obsessively. ive spent so much time staring into the mirror trying to figure this out i feel that something is very wrong but ive only come across one picture on a male that even looks close to mine. im so confused. i have a history of scratching myself too much during yeast infections etc that i cause sores that look like herpes. ive had them swabbed in the past and it was just me breaking my skin. my skin down there gets so sensitive and breaks easily when i get these crazy itching episodes, to the point where my skin almost just rubs off like wet paper. it goes from my vagina to my rectum. but, this time feels different and im terrified. i got tested thursday and am still waiting on results but in the meantime, if this is my first outbreak i am at a loss because all that happened was severe itching, i mean severe, which has happened to me a lot like i said. i scratched my rectum so much i made it bleed. it hurt to pee and poop right after an episode of severe itching but im talking one time and that was it directly after scratching. the poop might have been twice which i found odd. then i noticed the scratches i have down there look different than they normally do, theyre more round. this scared me so much because it suddenly wasnt what i was used to...is this now something different? i didnt keep track of the days at first because i thought it was what i typically go through. i got over the counter yeast infection medication but was dtill itching. i went to the dr tuesday thinking it must just not have resolved. told her my history, she saw my genitals, saw where i had been scratching, and thought nothing of it. tested me for gon/chlam, bv, tric, yeast. gave me medication for yeast and i left. i felt better and thought nothing of it no issues. then i got my results- all negative. that kind of shocked me because why was i so itchy and injuring myself?it had resolved though and i went along my merry way. then saturday i had sex. and im not sure the timeline but somewhere after sex i scratched so hard it hurt to wipe after pooping. this doesnt normally help i dont think, but i do suffer from a very itchy rectum and tend to scratch it a lot. again, im not alarmed inthink this was monday. then wednesday night i take another look and see round sores. never had bumps, dont really look like ulcers, but look round and not like my normal scratch marks. only one was slightly sore to touch, no pain anywhere. but the fact that these marks were now round and one seemed like a dent scared the life out of me. so the next morning thursday i went back to urgent care and said that i was still having problems and that now i am terrified. she said it doesnt look like herpes but it is concerning this is happening. took a swab and took blood since ive been having ongoing issues down there. after leaving, almost everything looks back to normal, 3 days later. i am just so confused at this point. sometimes it looks like herpes sores sometimes it doesnt. i dont feel like i look like any of the pictures i see in here but i dont feel like its normal either. i will also note that before my appt thursday i was applying peteoleum to stop myself from itching but it seemed to maybe have actually been worse because when i went in thursday she told me to stop and jsut stop putting anything on it and now i feel so much better. no more itching, skin is less fragile, sores are healing. im so scared and obsessing and confused ive spent hours upon hours obsessing over this. if this is a first outbreak its ridiculously mild. please help me. also of note, ive been having the weirdest acne the past 4 weeks. its super sore, leaks clear, and leaves sores that take awhile to heal and some kinda scar and then disappear. i brought this at my dr and she didnt think it was related but ive never ever had this problem before its just odd.
this was today, now sunday, so 4 days after original pictures 
sorry i meant to include this picture with the comment of todays pictures but am new to posting on here so my apologies to formatting of this post with comments. this was also today. My concern is that i have the one on my perineum, which is incredibly small it actually is the size of if you pushed a pen and indented it into paper, but it is indented/seems somewhat deep, and then this one on my rectum which again is also small, and then the ones on my labia that seem flatter and bigger. they arent indented at all really. this one is honestly the only one that even kind of looks like it to me but even then i had to really hold my skin a certain way to capture a picture or else you wouldnt even see it. one was sore to touch barely, only one. i did have trouble pooping 1-2 times with wiping. these are round and some are indented. when i look at the pics i think wow i must be insane compared to all the posts on here but its also different for what is typical for me and i am scared. i have lost a lot of sleep over this and feel crazy. all symptoms are now basically gone, and have been for days but these marks are still kind of healing and thats it. also of note, she looked inside again on thursdays appt and did say it looked yeasty in there? but i had just tested negative the tuesday before. she did a full panel again thursday for everything 