Please help - suicidal maybe????

Mental health
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Hello everyone,

I suffer extreme anxiety at the moment and have OCD Intrusive thoughts .

I have really struggling at the moment and am now worrying I'm going to kill myself.

I have instrusive thoughts about killing myself ( which I have had on and off for years)

Lately when I have been thinking about how bad I am a thought of I want to kill myself comes into my head. (Just the words)

There has never been any self harm or plans. I actually don't think I want to die but how can I be sure?

I do feel lower than normal but I'm struggling so I think that's normal.

WOULD I KNOW IF I WAS SUICIDAL? please I don't want to sound silly or offend anyone. I am really terrified.

Please help me. I am on meds and seeing CBT xxx

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hi, Kim I know it is difficult time for you, I suggest you seek advice from your gp. Good luck

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Hi Kim

I know it's a very scary and difficult time for you please speak to your G.P. about your thoughts and also talk about them during your CBT sessions!! During your CBT have you been advised to keep a diary listing your thoughts and why you think you have them??? I was when I did it sometimes it helps as when you read back over the reasons as to what prompted the thoughts you may see a link, only an idea mind!!!

I have found this site to be extremely helpful and was given it by my G.P. it does help to talk to people who suffer similar problems. It's good to be able to be completely open and honest about your feelings something that I don't feel able to do within my family or friends. 

Keep talking and good luck I will be thinking of you Xxx 

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Thank you so much for replying. It's just so bizarre how obsessed I become with these thoughts and can't let them go 😫😫😫😫😫

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I'm happy to be able to give you another perspective. 

I have attempted suicide 3 times but each time it was whikst drinking and believe me each time I came round I felt rediculous and guilty. Each time I'd go through a psychiatric evaluation and immediately be released. 

Have you ever mentioned to anyone that you also suffer with obessional thoughts??? It may mean a change in medication I have tried a few as it seems we all react differently to each medication.

It's something definitely worth discussing with your G.P.

 

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Did you want to die at the time Sadie?

How did you feel? Xxx

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Hi I emphasise with you as I often suffer suicidal thoughts too.  What I do is google ways of doing it online and by the time I have done this am usually put off the idea a bit.  I can't find a way which is painless and quick and all the methods seem nasty and painful.   x

 

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i had a insence stick burning went i went to bed the other night,i rembered when i got into bed but didnt get back up to put it out,i just thouhght if theres a fire the smoke will kill me when im asleep....i knew that it would happen but i just wasnt bothered,i have all different thoughs about it aswell, when im in the bath is when i think about it mst often...i dont know why, ive no plan to kill myself and dont think i ever will just at the moment i just feel that if i died i wouldnt be bothered if that makes sence? you should probably speak to your gp about it, its probably to do with the depression,hopefully it will go away when that does