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Mental health
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Thats fine, I dont think i've read much that hasn't worried me!

and i try my best to distract myself but it is virtually impossible, I am practically bed-bound. I know staying in bed isn't going to solve anything but I feel too weak and tired to do anything, even though I cant sleep.

The doctor isn't really helping either, he told me i'm going crazy and doubled the dose of my sertraline yesterday and gave me temazepam for sleep and recommended 1 tab, i took 3 and still didnt sleep.

I think the worst part of this is that nobody seems to understand, even people that I know that have major depression seem to have different symptoms and say that they dont understand my symptoms

Im really stuck with what to do.

thank you for trying to help I really appreciate it

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Don't n't know if you believe in God (I hope you do) It sounds to meIe devil is trying Hold you down. If you are still having thelse negative thoughts find a church or speak with someone that does go. depression and suicidal thoughts are of the devil, pray out loud, I really hate that you are so sad and depressed and I wish I could help you,

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Don't n't know if you believe in God (I hope you do) It sounds to meIe devil is trying Hold you down. If you are still having thelse negative thoughts find a church or speak with someone that does go. depression and suicidal thoughts are of the devil, pray out loud, I really hate that you are so sad and depressed and I wish I could help you,

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I know what your going through, its so difficult to fuction like a normal person when you have all these problems. I really identified with what you said alot and it does feel like your living in a never ending hell. I wish i could be more helpful but the only thing that comes to mind is to keep things simple and take one day at a time. Alot of people do eventually find a medication that helps and they can work on getting their life back.

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You sound like a really strong person,please be careful stopping these meds, if you do it to quickly you could cause yourself more problems.

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Thank you. It's too late..I did stop them and got severe withdrawal syndrome which I still have. I've been med free for 7 months now.

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Thank you so much. I pray, others are praying for me, I have healing, I try everything. I'm told this gets better in time. I'm in touch with others who were severely injured by meds and in time, lots of time, it got better.

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Thank you Tracey. I'm so sorry you are having a dreadful time too. I can't risk medication as it was medication that did this to me. I didn't know what was happening but I discovered everything I was going through was side effects of the drugs. It all started on antibiotics and citalopram and valium made it all much worse. Then more drugs were added and it kept getting worse. So I'm med free and fighting for my life. Everyone on here is so kind and supportive..I really appreciate it.

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I hope I don't offend anyone but I hate how doctors push medication on to people, I know some need helped a lot and saved many lives, but they are filling their bank accounts and I don't think many docs really care about making people better. Do some research on children and ADHD meds, it's crazy, it changes them. I would give anything to help, mind, body and soul, that's not even recognized anymore

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All of our problems starts out with maybe headaches or fatigue, we go to a doctor because they are supposed to make us feel better, the doc sends you home with a script for pain pills or depression meds, they have side effects that make us feel worse so we go back, just to be given stronger more addicting meds, after that your life turns into a disaster and we are addicted and screwed

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Dear Dont,

I feel just this same way & it is so hard to cope. Every day seems like a nightmare. I am constantly thinking about suicide, but then I wonder if I already killed myself and that's why I feel like I'm in hell. I see my loved ones, and I wonder am I in my own personal hell. I can't talk to anyone about this, because I don't want to worry them. I wonder if it's possible to be in a kind of hell in your own mind?

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Hi there,

I am so sorry to hear about your depression and anxiety - life just suck when the Black Hound follows in your tracks!

Because you mention anxiety and depression after a shock, I suspect that, just maybe, you had a sort of nervous breakdown.  You may think that the shock was too small for such a big reaction, but it is really sometimes the straw that broke the camels' back.  You could be kept prisoner by this mental state for years and the worst thing about all this is that you cannot control your own behaviour or reactions whatsoever.

I rather believe in reprogramming one's own mind and behaviour, starting in being kind to yourself.  It is important that YOU decide what you are going to think and do next in any situation, by

-  reciting some positive key phrases.  Never respond with negative answers;

-  awarding yourself with a "hurray" in your mind when you managed a tricky

   situation;

-  having a small adventure every day;

-  turning mishaps to your advantage;

-  loving life!  Yes, it sounds cheesy, but take a camera of any sort and off you go!    Try to take as many pictures as you can of your surroundings as a sort of photo

    diary.  It could be a bee pollunating a flower, birds, people, buildings, an alley

    cat...   

    Download it to your computer every night and edit your treasure of the day.  

    Zoom in to see the fantastic detail of everything.  Every day becomes a new

    expedition.  Remember, they ALL eat bread: birds, fishes, dogs, cats, the whole

    lot (just remember a respectful distance).  You then discover we are all alike:  

    the same emotions, struggles and attempts at survival every day!  There are so

    many friends (and photo's) to make out there, so many adventures to have for

    no money at all.  

    Never underestimate boredom:  it is a frustrating, empty, negative demon that

    infiltrates your mind, giving you time to think too much, accompanied by old

    ghosts of losses long gone. 

    I hope that your tattered soul and battered self may turn from painful

    introspection to unlocking life, which is all about colours, music, songs, dancing,

    running, nature, a nice sneeze, loving something or someone some way or

    another, and wonderful earth itself.

    It worked for me... 

   

   

    

    

   

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Hi,

Well..it,s been a year,but i wanted to say it...hopefully it helps you.

it,s been many years being in depression for me,yes,everyday,when i wake up at morning i feel to die...and for these years i coped it myself,as i was not able to tell it to my parents, you know they will be too a lot in tension. i live away from them,being unsuccessful,choosing a careerwhich i never wanted to,and still living. you know why?? i was spending some money on myself and suddenly a girl with torn clothes and picking rag was standing at the door of the shop.

for a moment i was paralysed...i felt if she was in my place how would she feel...how happy she would be to get clothes,that money and that room i am living.

is it really the end?? then i realised the problem is in me..and the problem is i donot know how to enjoy. it was hard to come back, but dear, i had that anger coming in me whenever i got depressed...the anger that am i weak to lose like this?? no i was not,i cried,i cried like hell,and believe  me it is good to cry,to cry for no reason,it helps,then i would become normal,and moved on.

fact is i never gave up..

it is raining outside. because i felt lonely today morning i cried,cried till my heart was silent,and then i was okay...and am happy,just now...i do what i like to...but i never give up...just do not give up,fight it..cry,or shout,but do it..if you will not do it,it will lead you to think of suicide...after crying everything seems clear to me,as if, i can see the beauty...there is a lot to say..i do not know if you are still in this site or not...hope you are fine..it is really tough am, 22 and this stuff is in my head,i want to enjoy.

bye take care

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Hi meteor63,

How are you doing, everything OK? I see that this post is 1 year old, I hope you're better

I read a lot about vitamin and mineral deficiency on the web, many of them give all sorts of anxiety, panic atatcks, depression, but some doctors seem not to take that into account.

It's just a thought, hope that helps

James

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Depression is one of those things that you carry and know one can really understand as its based on your own experiences

Honestly they way i delt with it is through meditation and self reflection, there is no reason for you to be unhappy, happiness is a really a matter of perception, you cant FEEL happy you either are happy or you are not happy

google brainwave power music - it really helped me to start living my life

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Gosh i started feeling the same way to just after i graduated high school. I started loosing friennds and interest in alot of things due to my negativity thinking that im going to die at any moment. I was really lost scared and confused. At times i would try not to sob in my head i screamed for help. I didnt wanna look weak so i kept all my pain in. I faked myself to pretend to be happy. Its has worked but its cstches on to you. Honestly my depression was taking over my life. But what helped me the most was hope and being strong spirtually that i will make jt through the pain. Almost 2 years now have passed and i am slightly happier than i was before. Please just hold on take a vacation find someone interesting. Look at the details of life find something beautiful thatll cheer you up. Smile here and there. That always helped me even when i faked it. But now it lifts my spirits up gradually. Please hang on tight. Dont let your negative thoughts rule over you . Because only you can stop your brain from thinking those bad thoughts. My thoughts still come back here and there but i learned how to channel through it. Just know nothing bad will happen. Those chances are really unpredictable. Just live every minute and enjoy it God be with you

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Btw i recommend you stop doing drugs. If you have stopped doing them maybe its a side effect just be strong

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I can definitely understand in the beginning of my depression I always worked and just dealt with it or hide it away so to speak. Now lost my job 2years ago and the thought of even finding another job terrifies me . It's been almost two years now since I have worked which I know just makes my depression worse in the long run but I don't know how to get out of this mess of my life. I go to therapy I'm on antidepressants and bus par for anxiety (do t really notice if it helps) and I inderal for my heart papa rations. Just try and keep your head up and know that you are definitely not alone in this.

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I am not a doctor, nor do I think I'm in a position to say definitively that I know everything, but what I can say is this....

One day, a while ago, I went from being confident, strong and dependable to being quite anxious and feeling like I can't sit still.  It started with some weird symptoms, which I then became obsessive about, at the very same time I was going through moving and major life changes.  Then I started to worry about feeling confined or out of control.  

I started taking medicine, at first just for panic attacks, which seemed to help some, but I was still excessively worried, to the point that I had to carry it with me all the time.  I was convinced to try an SSRI, which I took for 16 days and I felt so much worse, it scared me.  I couldn't sleep, I felt disinterested in everything and it was basically all from the drugs, as I had not ever had feelings like this before.

Now to the positive point....

For many people I think anxiety is a way of your body telling you you're dealing with too much.  For me, I believe what I was dealing with was an amazing level of stress and the more I pushed to get through it, the more my adrenaline level shot up.  The more normal that became for me, the more I pushed and pushed to accept the stress.  Once things snapped and I started feeling the anxiety and stress, I worried and began suffering from physical symptoms and then that turned into a new reason to worry.  Before you know it, you're not worrying just about the problems you needed to deal with, but the fact that you're not feeling normal and this is confusing or even scary, especially, because you're automatically assuming you're "mentally ill".

In my case, the first time I had a "breakthrough" was when I accepted that medicine alone, wasn't the issue.  I started to realize that these medical feelings I was having was a result of anxiety and not dealing with the problems I needed to deal with.  When I started gradually facing them, I started to feel like I was no longer trapped; like I could control my own destiny.  You have to realize the feelings you're feeling are owned by you, take a deep breath, face them gradually and understand you do have the power to make your life whatever you want it to be.  

For some people that may involved a therapist and having someone to "vent" to.  For some it might involve medication until they can feel more in control.  For some it might be making life changes that they've avoided and for others, it might be all 3 things, plus stuff I haven't even thought of.  

The best thing I can say is get checked for anything you're worried about.  Deal with a doctor you trust, who listens to you and make sure there is no underlying issue.  See a therapist and be honest about your feelings.  Take stock of the things you feel confined by or the things you feel you "need" to do and gradually fix them.  You have the power to run your own life, truly.  If you start thinking about things in this manner and have the support of some loving people, you can accomplish anything.  

The reality is most of us who deal with anxiety have a hard time accepting that it's anxiety and that doesn't mean don't get checked out, it just means, that we need to understand we have the power to make ourselves feel sick OR to make ourselves feel better.  So when we've accepted the path to feeling better and accepted that we're not "abnormal", we can release some of those worries and start moving towards enjoying life.  

Best of luck to anyone who feels anxious.  Talk to someone, help each other and work towards health and happiness.  You definitely can regain it!

 

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My friend. I am going through exactly what you are going through. Every word you wrote is a description of what has been happening to me for the last year.. who in Hell can explain it?! And what do we do about it!? All I have been able to do is take it one day at  a time. sometimes, One minute at at time. I refuse suicide! If I die, I will be thankful, probably. But I'm can't , won't do it myself! I quit the drugs. I stopped clonazepam after 8 months of pure hell from it. It did brain damage! But still, I am in HELL. 4 months off of benzos, and I think I could go to hell for a vacation after I'm through with this.! I wish I knew what to tell you. If I did, I would know what to tell myselfl.

     I'm sure you've tried every supplement out there. Most of it can't begin to make a difference, or change the hell we're going through. I want my life back too, at least what I can remember of it. But who can help? God? I'm tired of hearing that God can help. Maybe He can, maybe He can't...I don't know.  All I know for sure is I'm still in Hell, God or Not!

     Email me. We're brothers in Hell.

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