Today I feel my depression is ok, only thing is on the days when I'm feeling ''good'' I have a naging thought that it's all going to come crashing down again, cant seem to stop the thoughts of 'make the most of this, because its not going to last' ' it never does'
Am I alone in this kind of negitive thinking, & why does my brain keep me locked into these brain busting rhythms.
No you definitely ain't alone, exactly how I feel!! Was having a major meltdown this morning, anxiety was through the roof with strange thoughts - now I feel good and I have the same thought saying ah well will b back to square one tomorrow so no you definitely ain't alone x
Hi Martin I feel the same some days I am ok and other days I get the negative feelings coming back I keep a diary and write down everything that has happened that day sometimes I know it's hard but try and keep busy have you spoke to your gp about how you are feeling x
You are DEFINATELY not alone in these feelings... I think for me , its important for me to be aware that yes it is good now, but that its not always going to be this good... And that even tho it is going to 'come crashing down' its not the end of the world. Sometimes I just need a good god damn cry and a hug. Which I can never really be satisfied or happy with. But , I also have to allow myself to be happy. As a single mom with no support from family, I feel alone a lot. And it gets right to my head sometimes. I have deep feelings about it. But there is choices for me. I choose not to drag myself down in sad or bad emotions because I want to try and just be my good self. Not the ugly self I become when I feel down. Thats just me tho. Hope that made sense . I dont know. But u are not alone. . I hope u do have a really great rest of the day !!!! 
I know exactly how you feel coz I do the same. Or rather I don't do it as much as I used to because I have learnt my triggers and am getting better at dealing with them.
Try and pinpoint what happens just before it all crashes - ie do you have a row with someone or problems at work? If you can work out the triggers you can learn to avoid them as much as possible or take steps to deal with issues. x
No you are not alone in those thoughts as I feel like that way too. I find it very difficult to think positively, but depression does that to us.
Thank you all for your answeres & advice, It realy makes a difference to know that its not just me, I wish I were mentaly stronger, & able to adjust my thought prosses, maybe its a skill I need to focus on more..
Again thanks for your help guys..
Even mentally strong people suffer with depression you know so it is not a fault within you! Depression makes it very hard to concentrate your thought processes anyway and you have to wait until you feel a bit better before you can put strategies in place or explore issues further. It's not easy but perservance is the key. Take it easy. x