Thank you so much that has gave me so much hope honestly. I am just finding it too hard to get through the days, every day I am waking up so early straight into a panic attack and just waiting for the day to end praying I will be better the next day.
I have had anxiety in the past but this currently is off the scale, I have no idea how I am even alive, it just feels that I am going to drop any second.
I cant even play a video game that I love doing, anything is just making me panic more, I dont understand it.
I will have like a few minutes where I think I finally have got through and then it comes on again, I just do not seem to be getting the slightest bit better.
I get very scared everytime I do go and stand up that I am going to collapse, I am ok if I keep walking but to stand still seems the worse, just a terrible feeling of fear that I am going to collapse.
Seriously I know what I wrote 19 months ago will look the same as this but I promise you it is not, I was doing so great, exercising every day, completely stopped my alcohol, I have tried everything.
It is 100% since going on propanalol that my visits to A&E have been at least 2 times per week, and it has taken me up until now to just think that it is propanalol making me feel the way I have been all those times at A&E.
Since I have reduced from 40MG to 20 I dont even have the strength to go to A&E now, it feels as if I cant do a single thing. I cant even feel to type here on my phone but obviously I am it is so hard to explain.
Have had what has to be about 50 ECG now, even a 24 hour one and all bloods have been clear every single time, I am also not diabetic.
I just cant believe it, it is a constant panic attack and I am petrified something is wrong with me. Also have never been able to sleep whilst on propanalol, it takes me like 5 hours even tho I am beyond exhausted and wake up feeling like I have drank 30 cans of beer with my heart racing so fast.
Surprisingly my heart rate is ok at the moment, it was higher the first 2 days but it is the mornings and bedtime that I notice it the worst, the only thing that helps is throwing litres of water down me to bring it down.
I promise you, I am so greatful for your reply and I will be for absoloutely anything more you tell me, honestly the biggest thing that will help is if you could just perhaps type a rough quick list of all the feelings you had on this.
I am absoloutely terrified, have never felt so ill in my whole life, just cannot stop this internal shaking, weak floaty feeling and weak legs and tingling etc.
Absoloutely horrible and it has put me off ever taking any drug again in my whole life now.
Thank You so much I promise I appreciate any words and I am immensely so happy you got through this!