I met my ex boyfriend nearly 2 years ago, we had the most amazing perfect relationship, he was my best friend and I felt as though i had met my soul mate. However, I moved to uni in september to complete my final year and things just started going down hill, i began being really anxious and would over think every little aspect of the relationship, i would even get annoyed with him for not replying to a text within 5 minutes, he couldnt do anything right. I went to the doctors and i was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Recently, my ex has ended the relationship and I just feel as though i cant cope, I blame myself for the whole thing because i just pushed him away. I ended the relationship about 10 times just because I didnt want to put him through it anymore and he still stuck by me, however, this time he hasnt. I feel completely lost and I dont know what to do, i feel like I just cant cope without him and he wont even listen to me. I just wish i could prove that things dont need to be this way and Im taking the steps to solve it. Please help
Hello I am sorry your feeling this way. As regards your relationship i do think you have pushed him away for good. I am being harsh because i feel that for him it was too many rejections. Think about how you would have felt being pushed away so many times. He may not of understood your health issues but it does sound like he kept taking you back. We are all Human and can only take so much. I think you need to learn from this experience and work on yourself. Are you on any meds? I think you would benefit from Counselling or talking therapies. I have depression and in the past i have benefited from both of these. Until you work on yourself you will not have successful relationships. Depression is an inward anger and you need to work through your issues. I hope this helps.
Best wishes.
Elizabeth.
I'm realising now how hard it must have been for him but I literally can't cope without him I just wish there was a way I could make him understand I don't want to be and won't be like this forever, I just want to make everything right again.
Hi, I know how you must be feeling right now becuase I'm going through a very similar thing. I have struggled like this all my life with relationships and always pushed people away because for some reason i get an unbearable sickening anxiety attack. Until now it hasnt really affected me but now i have met such an amazing man and have been in a happy relationship for more than a year until it hit me like a ton of bricks one afternoon. I went completely downhill and couldnt eat, sleep, think properly. I had a bad stomach and kept having to run to the toilet and i would throw up, wouldnt stop shaking, crying and my heart was beating so hard and so fast. I would be scared when i was with my boyfiend and i would be scared when i wasnt it was hell. I tried breaking up with him because i was questioning all my feelings for him and i thought that doing so would take all this away but when i would speak to him and try to explain my feelings they just didnt make sense, at first he was updet and hurt naturally but when we realised it was anxiety it made much more sense and one forum which really helped me to read is 'Anxiety and Love' on the 'uncommon forum' check it out online. My partner has read up on anxiety and he knows that it's just irrational thinking, he is able to support me so much now because he understands it isnt me and it's the anxiety. As time has gone on this feeling of wanting to 'run away' from him has died down but i still feel very low and depressed with nasty anxious thoughts. My doctor has prescribed me propranolol 1 x3times a day and now it has been increased to 3 x 3times a day. this has taken away a lot of my physical symptoms but im just waiting for my councelling which begins next month. i dont want anti depressants because im only 19 but it seems like my only option if te councelling doesnt work