I'm going to keep this short. Basically I was on three different types of birth control, I stopped all together in April because I was dealing with depressive thoughts thinking it was the birth controls fault. But thinking back I tried edibles once in jan and in march, and both times I was super paranoid and felt horrible coming off the high, havent been the same since really. I've been dealing with depressive thoughts since feb/ march. since the start of may I started to get super anxious, and went through cycles of depression/ anxiety and then somewhat normalcy. side note, ive always had ocd tendencies. but i went to the doctor in april and got prescribed zoloft, did not take it for a month but finally took it in the middle of may, i stopped it a week later because it heightened my anxiety. also reached out to a therapist and started working with her in late april I believe. she hasnt really started any effective therapy with me. just pschoanalysis. but now im at a all time anxiety point, im scared of things like my bed and going to sleep, even though I sleep quite well. I have a new fear of sleep paralysis. my vision gets weird like static vision. I constantly question if im dreaming or not. focusing is hard because I feel like I hyper focus so much to the point of not focusing. I feel like I dont know who I am. I also struggle with thoughts of leaving my partner. I feel super dumb because of my poor focus, my memory is bad, and I get anxious because my memory is bad. I feel like I cant fully relax. I also have a fear of developing other serious mental disorders like bpd or hallocinating. Im always questioning myself. I just dont feel right. I feel like there is more to it then just anxiety and depression. but then I feel like maybe I just have super bad anxiety. can any one relate? does someone know what could help ? ALSO ive been doing yoga and meditation every day since the start of april, and i read almost every day to try and help my mind. i also live in the USA and my mum lives in the UK, so i deal with alot of anxiety in regards to if i will see her this summer.