Quire of having hemorrhoids?

Hi there, I wounder if you can help me? I have been having troublesome irritation down below for a month now. I have looked with the use of a mirror and the only thing I can see is a skin tag after having hemorrhoids 14 years ago. Anyway when I pass a stool it feels okay until I finish and when I retract it feels like something is still there. A constant pressure sensation like I want to push whatever it is out. It can be a wee bit itchy too and when passing there's no sign of blood at all. I do have to take regular laxatives as I do take morphine regularly as I do suffer from phantom pain. Because of taking morphine I can have a wee bit of difficulty at the beginning of passing but after that it turns into diarrhoea. I have used petroleum jelly to see if I can feel anything but sadly I don't know what to feel for. I feel something but don't know what it could be. Is it something that is actually meant to be there or something else that shouldn't be there? Please help as I'm going around the twist worry. I have used creams/ointments and suppositories but only eases the troublesome sensations but not cured. I am scared to see my GP and I know they have seen all sorts of troublesome problems, but you see I'm a very nervous and shy person. What is it and what should I do? 😟

It may be due to the hemorrhoids and all the straining you are doing. What exactly do you feel when you say that you feel something?

Hi there, I feel like a wee soft flappy tissue and because I’m not 100% sure of what it is I don’t know if it’s meant to be there. If you ken what I mean. Does diarrhoea make healing longer? Thanks Pono forreplying back.