I have developed anxiety since sep. 2017, and after that I have experienced all different kind of symptoms. I feel really tired now that it is never going to end and I never be calm and energatic as before.
These all started in september when couple of times I got higher blood pressure and I really got paniced about that, and after that every time I meassured my blood pressure it was higher (I also have really bad phobia of taking BP). Eventually my doctor put me on BP medication. But I am 31years old and none of my friends have to take these kind of meds which really upsets me that what I did wrong and why I have to suffer all this which aggervated my anxiety more. after that I experienced all different kind of anxiety symptoms like chest tightness, tinglling, head-ache, numbness and what not. latest I am experiencing is heart palpitation. it started few weeks back and slowly my heart rate started to stay around 95-100 even though I am resting. My resting heart rate used to be 67-69bpm before all of these. I got few EKGs, couple of Echo and couple of 24hr holter monitors. Everything came normal apart from having higher resting heart rate. So my doctor today switched my med and put me on beta blocker for my heart rate and BP both.
But I feel really down now. I just feel that this med is also not going to help me. I will be always anxious about my health, about my heart rate and about my blood pressure.
I hope no one have to experience what I am going through but If anyone who had experienced this kind of health anxity can help me to deal with this?
I am by means NOT a professional other than having anxiety and panic disorder for over 25 years. Sounds like you are having panic attacks. I would double check on the diagnosis of high blood pressure. Panic attacks can hit suddenly and your heart starts to race a higher than normal. Sometimes when that happens then it causes you to panic over your health and then you begin to worry that it is going to happen again at anytime. Yeah I would make sure you have high blood pressure and not just suffering from anxiety disorder or panic disorder.
Rest assured you are not alone - my story is very similar to yours and my health anxiety peaked around June last year. I am in a much better way now but still struggle dealing with things from time to time, but mostly for the same reasons as you, that I am mad this has happened to me and I can’t underatand why things keep happening to me. But unfortunately those emotions will heighten your anxiety. Learning to accept these symptoms and the anxiety are a part of me have brought me a LONG away on my route to recovery. I know it’s not easy but try to stay calm and accept these things will come and eventually go, and take the medication if your doctor has reccommended
Thanks Jess321 for your comment. strangely it feels slightly calming that there is someone who also experienced similar emotions and physical symptoms. I want to accept everything I am experienceing but having a really hard time. But your comment gave me hope that if I try, one day I will be able to accept everything and live better than I am living right now. Thanks again.