Morning all.
This is my first post here - be gentle with me.
I'm having real problems with anxiety of late. It stems back to May, when, completely by accident, I found out something that could tear my family apart (I know this sounds very Jeremy Kyle, I'm sorry). I've kept this to myself and for a while I thought this was the problem.
My GP prescribed Mirtazapine, as I have been on Citalopram for depression in the past, but I never really got on with it.
Last week at work, I had a panic attack. It was awful. I've not been back since. My GP has upped my dosage to 30mg and I feel like crap.
I was all set to go back to work today, but then the sweaty palms started, the shortness of breath...
I'm going back to my GP today to see if she will sign me off for the rest of the week. I know I need to get back to work, but I've been on the increased dosage for less than a week.
The thing is, I feel guilty. I feel ok at home, alone, when my wife is at work. I'll watch a movie, read, generally distract myself.
But when it comes to going out etc, I feel dreadful.
Oh, and to top things off, we're going on holiday with my family the week after next.
It never rains...
Anyway, thanks for reading.
C.
