Hi Girls,
Phew!!!! I feel a bit better now. I was really panicking. I understand now why you need extra time off, Jules and Gail. Beaglemum, seems you do similar work to me. I will try to keep moving around, but it is difficult. I do take a little break for a walk about at around 4.00 each day. I will have to try to be more careful when I go back to work after the op. Unfortunately, in my job, January is manic and I'm more used to doing 80 plus hours of overtime during that month than taking it easy.
Quite where I go for back to work advice, or even back to normality advice I have no idea. Where do I find this Occy Health person, or do they find me???
I know that in terms of pain, I am luckier than most people, at least I can function reasonably well, even if it is just due to the truck load of opiates I take each day. Without them, I'm on my knees. I am also highly dissociative (I have PTSD) which certainly helps as well. Also, I have a lot more numbness than pain now. At one time it was all pain and plenty of it, but now I would say the numbness is a greater problem. The surgeon described it as \"less of a nuisance\" which yep, it is that, but it is also more likely to be permanent, even after the op. On that basis given the choice I would rather have had the pain back, as the prognosis is better!! I will also be interested to see how the op affects my walking. As a result of the disc problem I ended up with foot drop. With little pain (due to the meds) and 'normal' or 'numb' elsewhere it isn't too bad, but with pain and numbness combined, it is awful beyond belief. They are a sort of double act. It's sort of like adding 5 for the pain and 5 for the numbness, but getting an overall score of 123!! It makes no sense. In anticipation, I am going to buy a walking stick. I really needed one before when the pain/numbness was really bad, but thought that was the beginning of the end, so I didn't buy it. I used to stumble/trip/fall a lot as a result, but after the op I can't risk falling over, particularly in the winter.
As for getting my life back, right now that concept seems totally alien to me. Even though I only did this on 4/5 January 2007, I have got so used to it now, I can't imagine anything any different.
I am pleased to hear that people say how surgery has transformed their lives. I find that quite hopeful. I have learned so much from the people here and am very grateful for that.
Best wishes
TFU