I had my 3wk review with dr today after him taking me off 45mg citalopram and straight onto 30mg mirtazipine. It does seem to ever to slightly lifted my depression but I have suffered the side effects - I've put on 9lbs (my weight gets me down as it is) increased tiredness and the worst of all my body aches all over, even my fingers and toes, to the point it's limiting what I can do - it's making me miserable and frustrated. I asked him if he could change the meds but he refused and has instead lowered my dosage down to 15mg saying that this would reduce the side effects. Won't this also reduce what they are supposed to do - I'm scared.
Feel completely let down - again!!
I am still struggling but feel a little better than I did. I can't get back to how I was a few weeks ago - I won't be able to cope and know I'll end up either doing something stupid or ending up in such a bad state that my choices will be taken away from me.
I'm terrified.
Hi there you say you are terrified what of my love,? have you had your choices taken away from you before?
This sounds like panic if you are not satisfied with what he has said then then please go back, you can not live your life being scared all the time xx
I'm scared I'm going to end up lower than low, I've suffered depression on and off but been in constant medication for it for over 8yrs. I don't think I have ever felt as bad as I did the other week, I way I feel now is how I've felt when I've previously felt low. I just don't think I can cope if i go back to how I felt or worse a few weeks ago. I constantly had thoughts that I didn't want to be here, but now I only get that feeling every other day or so, it's the thought of my children without a mum that stops me, what if my feelings go beyond that? I'm scared about how out if control of a thoughts and emotions in my head.
The one person who I thought could help hasn't. I feel so let down. So not only now am I battling with my head, I'm also in complete pain the entire day and night from these meds.
I'm tired, I'm scared, I feel completely alone, I'm not sure I can win this.
I cañ understañd and relate to your feelings of being scared and alone.I was supposed to drop my 40g Citraplam over three weeks then have four days off start 25g sertaline & after week up to 50. I decided to drop 40 to 30 for four days then I just dropped to 10 for a week.I then had five days without.Yes i got agaitated very angry,shaky & felt horrible.I was also alone as OH went away for a week he didnt kbow Id not followed the pla II stayed off all meds fir SIX weeks.I felt very wobbly but determined after 18 mths to stay ogf tablets.I went to my gp cos I felt so low and we agreed to start 25 sertaline for a week then to 50. Im feeling awful that I failed to stay off tablets the side effects heartburn awful yet Im still low! The plan is to up my dose to 100g! I feel in a catch 22 my new meds not working yet and the fact im back on high dose again.
plenty of people here on forum your not alone
Thank you for your reply.
I'm in so much pain today, my stomach muscles are now hurting especially my c-sec scar from 18mths ago, I'm on the verge if going to a&e, I feel that much I'm pain.