I know im not active as much recently, iv just been in my own bubble i suppose. So for those who dont know me il do a quick recap. Im 20 years old, had my complex thr on the 11th of April so about 16 weeks post op, i had collarbone surgery 6 weeks ago which seems to be healing well. Iv had 14 surgeries in total at the moment, 13 for hip and then the collar bone.
So recently im beginning to wonder if iv made the wrong decission, before surgery i was in serious chronic pain, had no life, no mobility, unable to work and so on. And now im exactly the same but the pain is even worse. My new hip is still hurting, still no mobility, my right hip seems to be getting worse and my back pain is even worse than usual, lately when im walking certain areas of my back feel like they are being twisted and then it starts grinding and popping and cracking, my knees are doing the same, then i have the usual knee and back pain from norma activities like washing the dishes, sitting, standing, cleaning the lizards out and so on.
so im general i just feel horrendous, i feel like im getting know where. Before the surgery i made the huge mistake of getting my hopes up thinking things may be a tiny bit bet, i knew id still have the issues with my back and knees but now i feel like everything has just gotten worse. I dont want sympathy, i just want to know if anyone feels the same or is experiancing anything similar.
It doesnt help that im intimidated by my surgeon and i feel as if he doesnt take me seriously or listen to my problem.
ALso ill include some photos just for fun recent pictures of my 2 new scars, my hips before surgery, hips now, and hey maybe ill even throw in the lizards because i know a few people had asked to see them since iv just gotten 2 new babies 2 weeks ago top row; Enna and Tango, Bottom; Aniera and Lixue, these 2 are my new girls, they are 6 weeks old, they are the tinest things iv ever laid eyes on, so cute