I have recently been diagnosed with anxiety about 8 months ago. At this moment in time i am not on any medication, and currently do not see a therapoist or counciller. I am in a loving relationship with my boyfriend and have been together almost a year now. I love him very much and he really loves me too.
However, recently, I've been having feelings of self doubt about my relatonship. I'm scared that out relationship is falling apart. I keep thinking about leaving him, but I dont want to because he makes me happy and i make him happy. Sometimes I think that he would be better of without me, because I keep thinking he's found someone better than me and is cheting on me. We're very happy when we spend time together, but when we are apart, I have bad thoughts about our relationship and think that something bad is gonna happen. I don't want to leave my boyfriend because there's no reason to. I love him with all my heart. All these bad thoughts are giving me panic attacks and I'm starting to have trouble sleeping.
I thought that the reason I think about this is because of my previous relationship about a year ago before i met my current boyfriend. To cut a long story short with my ex, I hung around in a relationship with someone I didn't love for about a year. I lost interest in him quickly and didn't realise this until after our one year anniversary. Maybe I'm scared that something similar will happen in my current relationship?
What I would like is a little bit of help. Has anyone experienced this before? If so, how did you deal with this?