Rocd or not? Help

Mental health
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Hi. I had a relationship with a girl for almost 2 years and got really emotionally hurt and abuses but I lover her so much. Everything I did was wrong we fought all the time etc.. I got anxious thoughts xobstantly about breaking up

After we broke up about two months after I started to see someone else. Before yams I was trying to go with people to sorta get revenge. I met this girl all nd it stopped. I didn't know her. I didn't really want a relationship with her or anyone else because of my ex...

The more I spent time with her tho my feelings got stronger and I really started to fall for her evenue told her I love her. Then one morning that doubt popped into my head this off feeling she rented me good morning and I wasn't bothered about texting her back. Then I got anxious and Google everything if I'm doubting it I'm not in love. Then ruminating over it everyday since I got up to u went to bed. Trying to analyse why I felt like this. I have had ocd shout other things in the past. I then started to believe that it wasn't ocd and gave into the doubt and got depressed and many times I've felt like I actually want to break up. Like I know what it is rhat I need to do. But I don't want to break up there's been days I've loved her so much and it's felt right and I was able to look into the fitre and feel happy. Now however I don't get anxious anymore. I used to get anxious when I thought about breaking up. Now I don't. I try to think of her and the future and I don't get happy anymore. I don't think I love her anymore. Because of that doubt at the start that I didn't really want to be there which might of went away. I just don't know if it will. Don't know if I want it to. But at the same time I sont want to break up because she is amazing and I know that part of me does love her. Suppose what I'm asking. Will that doubt ever go away. That feeling of not wanting to be there. I know it will if I wanr it to.sometimes I even feel sick when I'm around her.I just want to move on and get past this and be happy with her.but also dobt want to force it. Hoe can I get past these doubts because they make me feel kike I just want to give up and not want to try. Thank you

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Curtis  

You know the feelings you have for this person, all I can personally say is the longer you stay with this person the harder you will find it is to leave the relationship.If there are doubts that are tugging at your conscience. You need to be honest and fair with this girl and if need be move on. Only you can make that decision 

BOB

Sometimes many couples go through periods of warmth towards each other, next day there can be a cold wind that effects that day. Remember when we meet someone for the first time it takes a long time to know that person We then make decisions that can lead to a breakup only you know if things are not working and you want to move on

BOB

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Hello thank you I appreciate you replying. The thing I'd I really don't want to break up with this girl I want to get passed it she's amazing abd I do have love for her. It's just this anxiety I had rocd with her I came out od it and ruined it for myself I have this I dint want this be here anxiety feeling eBen I'll feel stron love for ger at this one's thisoimeshen others thisoimeshen one's mostly when she's not there sick and dont want to be bur I dint want to break up I don't want to loose her