Hello I've asked be fire but seeking help urgently. I was with somebody for 2 years almost and I got rocd but was treated really badly. We broke up and only 2 months after I met another girl. I was distant logically but the more time I spent with her the more I want to see of her I've been with her now 6 months. Hiwvere through that time I have been since I get up until I got to bed at night ruminating about a doubt I had that maybe I don't want to be woth her because I didn't reply to a text cuz I didn't feel bothered to then everything spiraled. I got anxious all the time but now I'm worried because the anxiety has sorta left but I still get depressed sometimes I still get down and even tho I know I love her and I know I want to be woth her ever time I say that I get that little thing that tells me no I don't and now I'm worried I'm forcing things or that I dont love her and there's even tines I feel like I want to break up with her but I don't want that but because of everything I feel although it is what I want I dint get anxious about breaking up now tho I used to is it possible that y anxiety and depression has led me to feel this way I'm just worried that it is how I actually feel and I'll have to end things because it is how I feel and I dot want that because she's perfect and she does make me happy I think I just over think to much I just can't stop this doubting feeling
ROCD can make a person doubt themselves and their decisions. Have you had counseling for this? Somebody who specializes in OCD and anxiety could be very helpful to you. These things are difficult to overcome alone. It always helps to talk to a professional. 😁❤️
I'm just worriwd that I dont want to be with her now. I get this thing that I dint want to be there and I feel now as if I dont love her and I want to break up. But I don't want that I want things to work out and she means so much to me but at times it feel like just a friendship and I've read things that say if I'm feeling like this I should end it but I don't want that. Nit really I just can't stop that doubting feeling. I don't want to string her a long but I don't want to loose her but I think the reason I'm feline like this is because I've convinced myself to feel this way because with the anxiety I constantly told myself I didn't want to be there and I started to believe it and now I feel as if I dont want to be there. I would love to know if feeling like this is changeable or I should just end it. Because I don't really want to end it but I get this feeling that I do.