Yes, as the subject says...i've hit rock bottom :cry: . I've been on flu for about 5 1/2 weeks and am finding i'm getting worse by the day. My doc says give it a little longer but I'm now feeling that perhaps flu isn't working for me.
I thought I couldn't cry anymore but last night I cried all my tears out. I'm highly depressed and terrible thoughts are going through my head. I feel that I'm no use to this world and it's better that I'm not here. When I think of my kids and partner, I'm thinking that they'd be happier without me.
Have you considered counselling? If you are not improving maybe there is something more fundamental going on than just seratonin absorbtion?
I guess I am one of the lucky ones. My doc upped my dosage to 40mg and I am feeling much better emotionally. Physically is another issue but I am starting to think there is something else going on in my worn out old body.
Keep yr head up and keep posting. We will listen and try to support.
I feel much better this evening and a lot calmer. I'm making the most of it - I know it's not going to last very long before I go nuts again!
I'll give it a little while longer before I see the Doc again. It's really horrible when I go all crazy and I just can't believe how calm I am right now. Well, I'm going to make the most of it and hit the pillow soon.
Take care all and thank you so so much for your support
im pleased you're feeling a bit better, the strange thing about depression is that it tends to get better as the day goes on :huh:
as regards going \"nuts\" its a combination of strong emotions, anger, frustration, sadness, impatience etc etc all happening at the same time :shock: :? it's a cousin to a panic attack, but eventually burns itself out just like a panic attack, the secret is to relax, not easy i know :roll: :wink:
anyhooooos hang on in there, if you kick it in to touch now, you'll be back to square one and have to try some other meds :huh:
My brother is in the medical trade (not mental health or a GP) and he explained that when you start taking Ad's basically you are climbing back up the ladder that took you to hell in the first place so you will go through much of went through on the way down in reverse on the way back up again. I certainly find Flu has made me remember things I locked out ages ago, and this has just made me feel empty, but in others apparently it makes them realise why they got depressed in the first place and that could be why some people get suicidal.
I am hoping this emptiness at the 6-8week marker is just a phase - having read many blogs on this forum it does seem to be a common occurance. The challenge is how to keep your job and the rest of life on the straight and narrow while trying to sort yourself out. If I find a way I will let you know. I have asked for counselling but I have to wait for several weeks.
Stick in there i know you must feel the low of the low just now but eveyone on here is to help you ok. When everyone keeps telling you that it takes time that is the last thing you want to hear i know but really you do just have to get through some rough patchs on flu but you can do it just stick with it xx
Chin up and remember if you need to chat anyone on here is ready to listen xx
it seems very difficult to talk about suicide on mental health sites :huh: lets get real, suicide is only death, we ALL arrive there sooner or later :roll: any trickcyclist that we talk to wants to know if we are suicidle, the experts know it's a big deal, so tell them ok, let's stop talking, 'bad/morbid/self harming thoughts stuff, how can these peeps help us if we're not honest with them etc :ok:
to commit/attemp suicide is NOT the weak/simple way out, at the point of deciding and DOING it is very heavy duty, trust me i have been there a couple of times :? let's be honest with each other and less of the british stiff upper lip stuff, stop feeling bad about having an illness, it's only because it's a psychiatric illness that there is a stigma attatched to it :shock: :cry: we have a PHYSICAL illness, the same as broken legs :wah: so lets get better rogether eh ?? :rainbow: :run: :cheers:
sorry about this outburst, i'm not 'wired up right' lol :wink: but i'm gonna post it under a new message for general consumption ok :sorry: :huh: