Hi , I was recently diagnosed with IBS.
Since then my life has changed - and not by my own conscious decision .
New life:
- pain , pain pain every single day. Yes some days the cramping and the pain is better then others but can we please not categorise mild pain and nausea as a good day.
A good day before was waking up doing a bit of exercise , having an actual meal of eggs and bacon or toast and peanut butter and coffee or whatever the he'll I felt for before setting out the rest of my day.
A day not filled with pain, a day where food does feel like torture. A day that's actually filled with some brightness regardless of the plans, cos I had an able body an able gut.
I exercised by my own choice, reduced the sugar in my coffee by my own choice and ate a side of vegetables instead of oily fried chips by my own choice.
Now I don't get a choice. Eat only this and avoid anything that smells or looks delicious cos it is now bad for me.. I want to sit in my room or runaway the moment I get the smell of "normal,regular" food because that's what I would rather eat.
I'm not saying all vegetable , or gut friendly foods tastes bad but I did not choose to be on this overly restricting diet ! So run , hide in my room or just avoid a normal social life cos it's torture being in a room filled with able bodies enjoying life , enjoying food ...
Exercise that's supposed to help deal with my sadness. Another method that's no longer my choice but something needed to relief IBS symptoms.
IBS and symptoms and diet and information and home remedies and this medication or that article or this website.... This is my new days. Nothing about this is bright. It's not a good day cos the level of cramping is less or because the meal I eaten was prepared excellently.
There is never a good day with IBS. It's just a new life. A life filled with rules and symptoms and diets. A life that "happiness" or brightness has to be measured on a different scale to regular normal way of life cos essentially nothing can compare to the freedom of your own meal and absolutely no pain.
So be grateful for my "good"days. Keep to my diet cos the cramping has reduced. Some how bring myself to exercise to control my anxiety to reduce a possibility of a flare up. An IBS full day and let's not forget about my constant occurring yest infection. .
I am struggling and I'm afraid to accept this as my new life. I miss my life.