Scan day

Women's health
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Hey ladies

Had scan today - the young lady was very kind. I can contact the doctors next week for results.

Walked out and just burst into tears. The waiting room was busy so I gave them something to laugh about. Had an embarrassing moment at a friends last night. I had braved it out - (took me 10 minutes to knock on the door.

Then I totally flooded my underwear and jeans with an untimely period?!!

I left the hospital and just wanted to go back to bed. Husband wanted to go for breakfast!! He reminded me he kindly picked me up this morning and it would be nice to do. I agree with this but not with how I was feeling.

I try and explain but I'm not doing a very good job of it lol. In the restaurant again I was the entertainment for others- Not through choice. I got very upset - I could not stop the tears - hubby frustrated with me ( rather loudly) what have you got to cry about??

I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me.

I wanted to hide under the table. ( I do have a bulging disc - to add to the pile) which has not helped.

Finally got home and just wanted to go to bed.

It was only midday.

Totally drained and feeling so low the panic and dread of work tomorrow started to make my head and heart pound. The awful thoughts drenched my mind - breathing got harder- thoughts of not being good enough at work tomorrow ( on a phased return to work due to disc).so I feel like I'm being tested -- paranoia or what!!!!

This has to stop? I laid my head on the pillow.

The next I knew it was two hours later.

Felt a bit wobbly but much better than earlier.

Hubby bought up a cup of tea saying - this is not meant to make you cry but it's OK if you do I'm trying to understand!!

We locked eyes and for that split second we smiled.- then I cried!!!!!

What a roller-coaster of a day.

Managed a walk before the rain.

Had tea as a family and yes more tears.

Ok if I'm going to do lots of crying that's the way it is. I will have to stop what people are thinking or that I have ruined their day as that makes me feel worse and I wonder if people are worried about me when they see me in tears - I doubt it.

Let's see what Monday brings x

Hope it made you smile ladies and please do laugh I know your laughing with me.

Big hugs all.

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Stop worrying what others are thinking that should read.

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Oh deary me, what our hormones and emotions put us through. Sounds as though you have a lovely caring family. Lots of cups of tea and hugs and keep strong.

Spare panties in your handbag from now on! 😘

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Yes definitely spare knickers and maybe a pair of trousers. I was totally embarrassed.

Thank you for your kind words x 😊

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Bless you hun. Nothing like a good cry. X

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Thank you x

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It's your hormones party and you can cry if you want to.

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Hi sazzie

I understand what you are going through. I have been working a lot myself with problem. 

I have a heal spur on my right foot and my left foot has inflamation in it on the ball of the foot. I also have carpel tunnel in my hands and yesterday was the worst for me. Both my hands were going numb badly. I went to work yesterday and at work i got a little dizzy and shaky and weak like my sugar went down so i asked my manager for a ginger ale and i went to sit down for a while then i went back to my work duties and finished my shift. 

Today i called in sick for the first time but i do not want to make a habbit of this. All day my hands have been going numb off and on today. 

All i did was sleep with how tired a draged out i am. 

I am also in menopause and i have been cramping all all week feeling like i am going to have a period because i have symptoms of leakage and bathroom problems and that always occurs before i do have a period 

So i understand how you feel about just crying it out because i just come home from work and i am in pain all i do is cry it out to make me feel better 

Elizabeth

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I just want to offer you a hug and a box of tissues.  (((Sazzie)))

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Thank you x big hugs back x

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So how you doing sazzie did you read mine Sometimes you just have to cry it out and it helps 

I pray that you have a better week 

Elizabeth

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You poor thing....i havent had any 'flooding' accidents yet. But my poor mum did years ago.....all over a friends newly upholstered white chair. She was mortified. I understand the emotional upheaval though. I have days that are so bad I think I am getting severe depression. Then other days I am pinging with anxiety. Then I have normal days when it goes away. Its exhausting. When I have a bad day I dread going to work the next day but force myself to as I don't want to give in to it. (Even though I shake inside and sweat the whole time!)

And don't think peoplr are laughing at you....mist people would want to help you not laugh.

You aren't alone. X

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😢😢😢😢😢

Us women do.go.through it.

I keep crying lately

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Hi sazzie42. Big cuddly hug to you firstly. I am sure people will not be laughing at you when you are in tears - I know it's hugely embaressing for you, but people will not be laughing. & you need to try to stop worrying about what other people may or may not be thinking . I hate to see people upset. I know the peri/meno can bring total lack of control on emotions, mood, concentration, & normal level-headedness. It all adds to massive frustration, so no bloody wonder we need to cry! It has to come out of us somehow! How old are you sazzie, do you still have your uterus & are you on any kind of hrt yet? when did your peri begin approx? Was it a transvaginal ultrasound scan you had? (so sorry if you have posted all this on another post, I cannot remember). & sorry for all the questions, just trying to see if I can help with anything! xxx

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Hi looloo

Yes it was for a transvaginal scan. I am 44 and it all started about 6 months ago. I thought at first it was trauma dealing with a prolapsed disc and not getting help from any doctor or hospital with that. And then I kept bleeding for weeks and would jot stop crying then the panic set in and I was too afraid to go out or see any one. I totally cut myself off. I still have my uterus. I ended up in a n e and a lady doctor suggested that I asked gp to order certain tests.

I went to work today but felt totally overwhelmed. I'm on a phased return due to back but I feel so scared when I return to full hours x cheers for text. If you can think of anything that may help please let me know.

Sazzie42 x

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Hey sazzie you have not answered my replys that i gave you. I sent you two replys and i have not gotten an answer from you it seems like you are skipping my reply and going to other replys this hurts my feelings like i am not being noticed 

Elizabeth

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Hey Elizabeth

I am soo sorry if that's how you felt.

I would not want you to feel like that. I did not reply on purpose at all. Please accept my heartfelt apologies and have a big hug from me. I have read your post and it sounds like it's been soooo tough. Well done for only phoning in sick on one day. How has your day been today? A better one I hope.

Big hugs from me x

Sazzie42

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Thanks i will i just hope you are doing better today. There are times i just want to cry and i do sometimes i just cry myself to sleep 

Elizabeth

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Hello back Elizabeth

Do you have a nice warm bath to help with relaxation and meditation to aid with sleep?

I ask only as I have found this helps on occasion and wanted to share.

It's not nice to cry yourself to sleep.😔

A good sleep can help the next day better.

Wish you a good one tomorrow x

Sazzie42

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Yes a warm bath does help me to relax at night there are times i have to take two of them at night plus a shower to help me relax. 

Then after my second bath i am out like a log and i am so tired sometimes i don't know if my iron is low with how tired i am because underneath my eyes they are a little dark like my iron is low i wonder if that could be causing my carpal tunnel in my hands becsause this weekend was the worse with my hands 

Elizabeth