I’m probably just freaking out over nothing but the past few weeks I’ve been noticing random, yet sharp shooting pains in my lower abdomen/ bladder area. They come and go. Sometimes I feel them on the left side and other times on the right. They also feel low, close to my vaginal area as well. I don’t know the best way to describe these pains, they aren’t excruciating, but lately they’ve been catching me off guard. I’ll just be walking around the house or laying in bed and I feel it. It fades after a few seconds. As far as I know, my urine looks normal. I don’t have frequent urination except in the morning after drinking coffee and lots of water after waking up, which makes sense.
I do have days when I feel really tired and fatigued for no specific reason.
Yes, I suffer with anxiety, some depression, mood swings, whatever you want to call it. I DO still have days when I feel pretty good, but it’s usually when something is keeping me busy or distracting me.
I know these pains are real and of course, with my health anxiety, I immediately think about cancer, Cancer, CANCER. Honestly, the thought of cancer has been replaying in my mind for a few weeks too. I try to distract myself from it but it’s always in the back of my head, a little voice saying “what if you have cancer and you don’t know it?” Or “what if these pains are because of cancer!”
It’s freaking me out.
I have no Health insurance, I’m a busy mom of a two year old, I have a supportive boyfriend (thankful for), a nice family, but I’m also lonely with few friends and a low key lifestyle right now since I work part time and am with my kid the other times.
I take care of myself. I’ve reallt developed this Health/exercise routine since my son’s been born. He’s a huge reason I want to take care of myself and it scares me to death thinking that I could be otherwise.