All the meds in the world don't help me! Just don't want to be scared anymore! Want to sleep but I can't want to drink but I can't...hating life!!!!!!!
On the same boat antidpressions make me feel worst you would think they would come up with something that worked for everybody like alcohol everybody gets it's affects
Just feel like I'm immune to everything x
I feel like drinking often. I cant because I have had alot of problems with it. I am addicted to benzo's and am on a reduction programme - properly controlled by my doctor, as well as on sertraline.
I have had problems for years. As well as the awful depression, and drink binges, when I'm not drinking, which is all the time currently, I find it really hard to go anywhere where people are drinking and seeming to have a good time. I feel like some sort of freak and long to be back 20 years ago, when I could enjoy a few drinks with friends.
Last night I went to a concert with my husband - an artist who used to be one of our favourites in 'our youth'. With people drinking in the pub near the venue, and also at the venue, I found that after the support act I was feeling lower and lower, clutching my bottle of water, thinking - why am I even here - and tears started rolling down my cheeks. My husband looked at me, and said, we'd better get you home, so we left.
This has happened a few times in the last year, so I think for the time being there isnt much point in trying to do this sort of thing.
I just feel safer at home, reading a good book, watching Tv or fims I like, drinking tea or coffee, stroking my cat, pottering about tidying up,... and hoping, hoping, I will one day feel better. But I know its a long process.
Please get as much help as you can.