I had PTSD about 4 years ago due to an accident at work and managed my way through with CBT and 20mg of Citalopram daily. I was on this for 2 years and eventually weaned off and was ok .... BUT the dreaded anxiety came back after 6 months ish.
I went back to my doctor and said what had happened and how I was feeling and he gave me 20mg of citaloptam again. I was a little bit gutted to be going back on meds but I thought needs must.
This is where it gets interesting... I started taking the citaloptam fully aware what the side effects were etc as my experience with them the time before ... Long story short I was on them for 3 months and by the end of the 3 months I was worse than ever before , I couldn't understand how they worked perfectly in the past but this time round never !?
I came off cold turkey as even putting 5mg of the drug into my system sent me into overdrive with panic attacks the lot ( I wasn't even having panic attacks before I even started the meds)
So 4 months of my life was hell !!! I went to see a specialist in London Harley street and was diagnosed with GAD (general anxiety disorder) he then prescribed me Lyrica ... I heard some right nasty life breaking stories about this drug so I went against the advice of the specialist and didn't take them.
I then decided to go it alone and thought F*ck it I can fight this thing and overcome it , no matter how clean I eat and how much exercise I do and meditation and acupuncture..it was just always there niggling me every day and tiring me out and depersonalising most days.
I went back to my GP after much research and asked for some amitriptiline 10mg tablets which he gave me.
I started these tablets and had some success with them but still didn't eliminate the majority of my anxiety and the side effects were quite bad in respect that it made me very tired and I had to take them at 6pm on an evening so I had half a chance of waking up for work the next morning with a clear ish sort of head. The problem is it was very hard to have any sort of quality of life after finishing work because I knew I had to take it at 6pm and be stuck in the house like a zombie till bed time.
I'm 34 and male and have a wife and 2 young children of 3&5 years old. I don't drink , I don't smoke and don't eat a bad diet of food. I'm really struggling with understanding why I've ended up in this situation.
MY MAIN QUESTION IS .... Has ANYONE at all failed with citaloptam and gone on to be successful with using sertraline??
I'm just too scared to give up another 3-4 months of my life with failure at the end , ending up worse than when I started.
Please help me out guys and tell me your thoughts and experiences.
I just want my life back.