Hi guys,
I'm new here!!
So glad I found this page as I have had the worst 5 weeks of my life.
At the begging of December it was like a switch went off and I went into full blown melt down.
I have absolutely no idea why. There was nothing happening stressful at work or in my personal life and I am normally a positive person.
I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't breath, I was shaking, felt like I was going to pass out. I even thought my house was falling down and for days was convincing myself that
that every bad thing that could possibly happen would.
To this day I still do not have a clue what triggered this.
Anyway, thankfully I have the most amazing husband and he straight away got me to the doctor.
She gave me some diazepam, signed me off work for 2 weeks and referred me to the local mental health team.
The diazepam worked however as soon as I stopped taking them I was a wreck again.
Over the past few weeks I kept trying to tell myself that it was just my brain playing tricks on me, everything I was thinking was again lie... I have tried everything and I mean everything to try and stop this feeling. The feeling that you just know something bad is going to happen. The sick feeling you get with worry, x 100
I even went as far again to tell the doc last week that I was ready to go back to work!!
Then on Tuesday the world crashed again and I was back to square 1.
My hubby, God bless him, called the doc straight away. Got me an app and she has given me Sertriline and diazepam.
So this is day 3 and I am having the usual side effects but I am determined to see it through as I really think they will help me,
Hopefully over the next few days I will stop feeling sick, shaking and having head aches (and this weird teeth clenching will go too!)
Just wanted to share my experience with you all and to let anyone who is out there searching these pages for answers and support. That you are not alone
Stay strong, even when it all feels too much (coz I was there!!) Just keep hanging on. Your body will not allow you to feel like this black cloud is surrounding you forever.
If you haven't already, go to the doc, make that appointment. You will not be the first person to go and speak to them about your problems.
Trust me! And if they give you meds of any kind, take them. Don't be discouraged by any "stigma" ...
I'm starting to accept the fact that this just might be the way it is and I will learn a new way to live with it . If I need to make a few adjustments I will.
I am going to get better coz ye know..... I have far to many people to annoy in this world lol.
Hope everyone is coping and hanging in there....
Thanks for reading (was good to get that off my chest)