Severe symptoms of thinking there is something medicaly wrong!

Mental health
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Hello all,

I have just joined this site and have a few problems.

I have anxiety where I do not leave the house for days/weeks at a time and now that seems to be the least of my worries.

I found an enlarged lymph node in my neck a year or so ago and even after having bloodwork done I was still not satisfied. Basically I thoughy I was dying of cancer amd CONSTANTLY thought about it and felt it for months on end. Then that preoccupation stopped.

Now it is something far more frightening for me and I am scared of the answer...

I fell asleep a couple of weeks ago and my eyes felt strained when they were closed. I didn't think too much of it, apart from it was a little annoying for me. But now, weeks on, I have decided somehow to fixate... and i mean FIXATE on my right eye. Constantly I can feel that it is strange and I am self checking in mirrors at every chance I get and ask for reasurance from others.

To me, it feels as if my right eye is going to fall out and it feels like it is movig forward. It feels stingy and I now have to fall asleep with my hand covering it. 

I know that I am in this for the long haul now because everytime this happens, I end up fixating for months and I don't want it to turn into years!

I am far too scared to type anything in on Google because what if I read that my eye CAN actualy fall out?! I think I would just collapse.

I had a panic attack the other night in bed because I am SO convinced that it is going ti fall out

Please help my giving me some advice.

Thank you, Misty xx

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When I was diagnosed with prostate cancer in 2005, for reasons unknown I did not panic, maybe because I didn't want to believe, what ever the reason, even though I used to be prone to panic, I accepted, and had faith in myself, and my doctor. Instead of thinking of the worse, I thought of the best. I continued to workout, lifted weights, trikked, and did not have trouble sleeping, in other words I thought positive. Why not accept what panic is, why not believe that the mind can play with our bodies if we let it, I had more things to concern myself with than feeling anxious. I still feel positive, still working out, have no fear of whats outside of my control, and live. If you think about it, that's really all we have, why make it more difficult.

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Your right. 

Sometimes it is just difficult, but I have to try.

Thank you very much for your reply.

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cancer does not form in the lymph nodes unless it has established itself somewhere else first.  Then blood circulates cancerous cells to other parts of the body via the lymph nodes.  Cancer is just started by mutated cells and takes a while to grow.  The body makes millions of mutations in a lifetime which fix themselves and most of these are not cancerous.  So don't worry about cancer for the moment.  And try not to read too much medical stuff if it worries you.

Richard