I know this is a long shot but I just wanted to see if anyone has gone through the same thing.. I have been suffering from terrible anxiety/depression the last few weeks and the main thought/rumination that will not leave my head is that I'm going to be gay. I have never been attracted sexually to other women. Sure I think other women are pretty or "hot" but not in a way that turns me on or makes me want to be with them. I have a fiance that I am madly in love with and who has been super supportive but yet I can't stop the thought. It's even gotten me scared to watch tv, look on Facebook or instagram, or at women in public because I'm afraid I'll be attracted to them. I know that's not how it works and this is all irrational but I can't make the thought stop. It's eating me up inside because I just want to go back to my normal self and loving relationship. Any help would be appreciated.
Whats wrong with finding women attractive ? I have found lots of women attractive and if I was that way inclined I have gone out with lots of women over the years. But im happily married to a man. What im saying is just because I look at women and think shes gorgeous dosent mean im gay or going to become gay.
I know that and I keep trying to tell myself that but it's not working. I recently started taking antidepressants so I know that it makes the anxieties and thoughts worse but it's really starting to hurt and weigh down on me.
Maybe you should not try. If your tabs are making things worse you need to speak to your Doctor.
Hey Megan
You have HOCD. No you're not gay. You love your boyfriend. I am not a lesbian and know women are hot and have nice body's especially those that come out on TV commercials. Anyways I'm straight. Get help and discuss this with your therapist. You are probably HOCD. They struggle with the same issue. "Sexuality" and ask her for ERP therapy. Take care👍 Hope you get better and try to ignore the intrusive thoughts.
Hey Katherine
I know you're trying to help but you don't understand shes suffering from HOCD. They struggle with the same issue, "Sexuality". Obsessional thoughts they can't control they're intrusive. If they are gay they think they might be straight. If they're straight they think they are gay. I agree. "We're not blind our same gender is attractive and hot, but that does not mean we want to go out with them ect. We are heterosexual women.👍👏
If your gay your gay, if your not your not. What you want or don't want doesn't matter in the slightest. Chill out, feel want you feel for whoever you feel it and leave it at that, it's a common thought to have, no point obsessing over it