hoping someone can ease my mind without judging or making me hate myself more than i do . i am in my 30s and suffer health anxiety so bad to the point i wont yse the communal cutlery or cups at work . anyways i dont "do " drugs on a regular basis at all but myself and partner went out with two really good friends of mine on the weekend , the two people have been happily married for almost 10 years now and have been dating as long as i can remember . we used to party back in the day but now as we have families we thought it would be really fun and naughty to try cocaine . we got a small amount and shared it using a rolled up note . it didnt do much ans that was that . fast forward days and im sick with worry as straws bank notes etc are apprently a high risk for hep c , i cant see much about hiv but i assume the risk is just as high . can anyone please talk to me about this . i feel sooooo stupid that i forgot my morals but more importantly i forgot to be safe while trying to re live my youth :(
you’ll be 100% fine.
You would have to be sniffing using a note that is wet with contaminated blood and have a sizable cut in your nose to transfer anything…really dont worry 
Hello
Several years ago I read a newspaper about the use of bank notes and snorting, it was mentions that many bank notes had quite amount of illegal drugs as dust etc on them because of what you describe above. Personally I would not use that way of taking drugs paper money can be very dirty and to put something like that up your nose or mouth could spread various virus and other things.
I personally feel the risk is slight, put it down to experience, what done is done. However you are anxious and you will keep worrying about it so see your GP. HIV I do not feel is a problem , although I know most on here would not say YAY or NAY. Put your mind at rest, you may, I am not that sure, get some raised eyebrows.
Do not do it again, I take a good tranche of medications as well as Opiates, I cannot understand why people want to get stuck taking these drugs
BOB
Hey, stop beating yourself up! You had a little crazy night for old time sake, you will not be punished for it and stop punishing yourself! You shared it with your good friends who are married 10 years - do you really think they have HIV or Hep C? Do you think they are worrying about this? No! They dont have anxiety so they are not. Really try think logically. Maybe say it out loud to yourself to bring this home. Your anxiety is thinking this, you are not! As for morals - look around you at the number of people drinking alcohol every day - this is also a drug yet ‘socially acceptable’. I am not saying taking cocaine is good and it is definitely not good if you have anxiety but you already know this and the fact you feel so bad about it tells me you more morals than most! Give yourself a break and maybe stick to the tea next time 
x
your reply really helped me, you are so right ! i am beating myself up over a little fun as i feel guilty and im looking for a reason for it to turn bad . i wont be doing it again thats for sure ( honestly what are all the kids raving about when it comes to coke anyways lol )
i will move forward and take it as a lesson learnt .
thankyou
thankyou , i read that eben invisible amounts of blood was enough and it sent me a little loopy 
. i will put it out of my head
glad to hear:)
sooooo im
really struggling today . my partner is laughing at me but it all feels so real in my head . i am still weeks off testing. was hoping you could talk me down .
im reading that even miscroscopic blood on notes transfer hep c and hiv . i know the likelyhood of ny two friends having anything is slow so why cant i rest ?
i feel like im ready for a psych ward the way im going
i really think you should see your doctor as theyll be able to put your mind at ease even if they cant test you. the chances are so so low i mean there would be an epidemic otherwise with the anount of people who use notes to snort. ive seen doctors, nurses, lawyers do it many times. if you cant see a doc find a helpline i really think hearing from aome sort of professional that this is not aomething to worry about will help you a lot. i woukd bet my life that you did not contract HIV or hep c doing this! you will be in a psych ward. you know in your heart this is crazy. you know the difference between real and not so try very best to be calm and speak to a doctor r of some sort! youll be fine!!
sorry i meant you will NOT be in a psych ward!
i completely agree with everything you are saying. i am so down at myself for risking my health .
you really do calm me ! thats so weird considering you dont know me but i feel relieved when i read your replies.
i have read that almost 90 percent of hep c can be cured these days so that helped me and obviously trying to keep in mind that my friends proabably do not have the disease even if blood was transmitted .
im genuinely trying so hard to think of the positive but find myself constantly googling . the fact that many medical sites call " intranasal " a high transmission risk scared the s@@t out of me but again if im honest with myself i know i would get scared of even just a slight risk .
i wish i could have your mindset !
ps- thankyou , im glad you dont think im headed for a psych ward lol
ps- thankyou , i’m glad you don’t think I will end up in the psych ward LOL.
I posted below but wasn’t sure if you’d see my reply
well im glad i can help in some small way! i know how youre feeling ive driven myself crazy worrying over similiar things. before i knew i had ‘anxiety’… Google is definitely the enemy - you could google any crazy theory and find some evidence to back it up… just think if someone gave you the same odds (that you have of getting HIV OR HEP C from a bank note) to win the lotto, you wouldnt be going around celebrating like youd won!
as for my mind set - careful what you wish for i have my own anxieties! ugh!
yea thats correct we are all fighting our own anxiety battles. my anxiety got the better of me and i called a hep c helpline . they said not to be ashamed and thats the odds are so low unless i had a big session with someone infected he wouldnt even advise testing . made me feel better until i thought about the numerous websites that state possibility from one droplet on one occasion . we so crazy arent we haha
nothing wrong with that at least you got info you can trust. the internet is full of rubbish. even studies done by reputable researchers - taken out of context are misleading. you have nothing to worry about. nothing on the internet will give you a definitive answer anyway whatever the situation. maybe make a rule - worry all you want but just no googling. see if it helps