As I sit in the ER waiting room I realize my health anxiety has gotten the absolute best of me. Asked my sister to watch my daughter and made my fiancé late for work by asking him to drive me. Tonight I checked my blood pressure and it read 158/144 ... my eyesight instantly went blurry and I was shaking I checked it again not even 20 secs later and it was 130/80 and my pulse went to 156 ... I was so confused is it possible for that to happen? I sat there and sat there taking it and taking it and it just got lower and lower... convinced something is wrong with my heart for how that leap went... while I'm still over thinking and freaking out my family is telling me it was just a machine malfunction and I began to cry alone in the restroom so stressed because they see a machine malfunction and I seen a huge health problem with my heart. I sit here alone in the ER wanting to cry again because I'm just so sick of feeling so controlled and scared...
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way . Sometimes for me it’s helpful to think about probabilities: is it more likely the machine did something glitchy or that something is very wrong? In most circumstances, an at-home piece of technology malfunctioning is much more likely. I hope you will get some further assurances at then ER. But it seems like you’ve identified something important, which is how much power your health anxiety has over your life and relationships. Identifying this is the first part in removing some of its power!
That was me about five days ago in the ER. I know I’m in incredible shape and it just saddens me because I knew they were going to come back and say everything was good. They increased my dose and I thought it was making me have a hard time breathing but it was really hyper ventilation. It really depressed me being in there when there’s some really sick people there.
I tried to look up if a 60 drop is even possible in seconds but I couldn't find much just more scary news.. so I stopped and just came in bc that "what if" is always there it's pretty much consuming me I've come to the ER soooooo much
I told myself that too I knew I was just gonna be told that it was most likely the machine but I can't get the what if it wasn't out of my head and it was driving me nuts...