Lone, social, morning, noon and night were all the same to me. When I wanted a drink I got one.This is the second time today, I've written posts, two very long ones, got to the end and they just disappear. Yes I know, my own fault for not copy and pasting.
It's great that you posted, and even greater that you didn't buy wine. It's a good feeling when you can do that, gold star to you.
I was a heavy binge drinker at your age, but was fortunate enough to be offered acamprosate (anti craving medication, also known as campral). It really worked for me. I took it for a year without any booze at all. I then did another 3 years abstainant on my own.
I went to a party and asked for a lime and soda. The bloke misheard me and gave me wine and soda. I had one sip and realised what it was and said nothing. I should have put it down and got a soft drink. Instead I convinced myself I would drink it as an experiment! Some experiment lol!! A year later the binges lasted longer, the wine went to vodka and was arrested for drink driving, the morning after a party when my last drink was 3am. I would never have driven had I known I was over the limit. I had my three children with me and had just dropped them off at school.
It was a wake up call 16 years ago. I needed help and wanted my life back. So went back to campral again for 12 months without any booze.
I'd love to be able to say I've had no problems since. I suffer from acute anxiety from time to time and would use alcohol to help.
These days I can social drink, I know when I've had enough and I never drink spirits. However I can really relate to your binge eating. I seriously think some people are prone to addiction more than others. I'm a shopaholic now, swapped one addiction for another. I had a sort out of clothes, HANDBAGS are my favourite. It's almost an obsession and I have literally spent thousands and thousands on designer bags. Prada, Chanel, mulberry, you name it and I've got it.
I would thoroughly recommend cbt (cognitive behavioural therapy) and have not bought a handbag for a year!
You seem quite determined, but keep posting on here. You can say what you want, you'll get good advice and nobody will be judgemental.
Good luck
My drinking habits are weird. If I don't have money for alcohol, I don't miss it. When I do, cravings niggle away at my brain until I cave. Twenty years ago, I was in a relationship with someone the age I am now. 38. He was a troubled man, violent, abusive and an alcoholic. I was with him 9 months and finally left following a row over a pair of jeans. I never went back, but his drinking habits rubbed off on me and proved harder to shake.