SO scared

nh_user_1124416 · August 28, 2018, 3:46am

Hi everyone. I’ve had anxiety for years now but it is starting to get very bad again. For the last year or so, I have been completely convinced that I have pancreatic cancer. This absolutely terrifies me and I’m so scared I will be diagnosed and die. I got a CT a year ago which came back all clear, and the doctors have reassured me that it’s not cancer but I can’t help think they are missing something and that I truly have a terrible disease. I’m so scared of dying. My symptoms have been pain and discomfort beneath left rib cage that radiates to the back as well as bloating, fatigue, dizziness, and abdormal stools. Can this all be anxiety or do I really have this awful disease? I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m also worried about having a heart attack even though I also had an EKG that came back normal. I truly think the doctors are missing something and I might die from a terrible disease any day now. Someone tell me what to do this is taking over my life sad

anon87974465 · August 28, 2018, 4:07am

Please message me I’ve been the same for a year also maybe we can help each other

nh_user_1177504 · August 28, 2018, 4:47am

U really sound identical to me you really do I'm bloated all day long suffer from constipation dizzyness shortness of breath I think about death and dying everyday I literally face death everyday of my life I have no motivation to do anything I've convinced I'm dying and nothing can save me.

nh_user_1177504 · August 28, 2018, 4:48am

My brain is consumed by my symptoms and my thoughts of death

nh_user_1177504 · August 28, 2018, 5:01am

Hey Kate direct message me i think my personal experience will I'm going thru currently will at least help u to know your not alone not only do I think the same way I am dealing with every sensation u talked to a tee the bloating is one of the worst it's just horrible

nh_user_619123 · August 28, 2018, 7:47am

Hi Kate, sorry your having a tough time. It does sound like anxiety is ruling your life and spiralling. I understand because I have been there. Reassurance from medics will not make you feel better if you are convinced that they are missing something. If you want the situation to get better then you need to start believing that you are strong and healthy...sounds impossible right now I bet. Have you seen a therapist about this issue? Talking to a professional can give you the tools to change your life in a positive way.

nh_user_1199406 · August 28, 2018, 10:06am

I'm no doctor nor do I have conclusive diagnosis but like you I felt and feel that I have some awful ilness and no way could I believe the symtoms I have and had for 10 months could be anxiety / trauma / phycosomatic but as time goes on and I see more doctors and read more posts I'm changing my view that it could all be phycosomatic .

I have had severe : vertigo / brain fog - pins needles - chest infection or pain - random joint pain - difficulty swallowing - back pain - acid reflux and stomach pain and smelling phantom smells . Iv had many blood tests and physical checks and I come back clear .

Iv not had ct or MRI but I think that would be clear too

The power of trauma is unbelievable and the effects it seems to have showing itself in a physical form . The more we manifest over what it might be the more the symptoms get stronger until we end up in a right mess .

My suggestion to you and all is , as my doctor is advising - try to accept it's all anxiety and try to re focus the mind away from thinking it's more

See a phyciotrist - meditate - breath and accept and you might find some relief

You are kind of in control ....