I didn't drink last night. It was hard at a couple of points when temptation nearly got the better of me but I didn't do it. The earlier part of the day i was optimistic - the drink monster was talking to me on & off saying my night would be boring without it. I tried to ignore it.
I practiced my dancing while my husband & Son watched the usual Saturday movie & had some popcorn. As I was finishing the drink monster started talking to me again. It was trigger time ! Every Saturday I would practice & it would be nearing bedtime for my son & while my husband but him to bed I would pour myself my first drink. There was no booze in the house so it wasn't an option. I decided to take the dog on the walk I had promised her & I put money in my pocket thinking I could stop in to the off licence & get some & down some before I came back. I knew I should of left the money at home but it made me feel safe having it.
On the walk I posted in here as I knew it was better to say it to someone. I walked & I thought sure I can just have a bit hopefully I will get the meds soon why deprive myself now before I start the meds what is the point of that ? Then I thought of my husband who is being so supportive & my promise to myself to never drink in secret again - that is at least over. I was walking towards the off licence & my dog turned off to go a different way & I went with her. I then walked home. Once home I knew I had done it as there was no alcohol in the house.
The evening was ok. I'll admit it would of been better with my usual hit. We watched a movie ordered food & I got a foot massage. Sounds really nice but it was missing but I did it. I actually did it. I would usually would drink tonight also but I think it wil be easier to not as the craving would be strong if I had of drank last night. I have an appointment with my doctor early tomorrow morning so I also want to have a clear head & at least at that point I can tell her I abstained for a week.
Again thank you all for your support here.
xxx
amazing!! Well done. You must be proud of yourself. New begnning for you. Robin
Yes! Hopefully the next time you are tempted will be just a successful. I like the fact that your dog led you away from the Off Licence too! 
I know! She just decided to turn a corner we never normally go. I have to thank her for that.
I was very tempted again tonight but I stayed home so I've actually managed to stay sober on the 2 nights every week I would get drunk on. It was hard but I did it.
You done well and hey maybe the dog did you a favour if you know what i mean. Well done and good luck with the doctors tomorrow, just be honest and take all the help you can. I have been in similar times to you. I know that there have been so many times when my boyfriend has been out that i have went to off/L or poured that drink when bedtime came. But tonight and today i am the same as you i havent. I am also a full week sober. There are times of the day when i seem to want it more than others but somehow i am pushing past it. As you say his support means a lot and the look of happiness in my daughters eyes means so much. My son was also here yesterday as well. So there are lots of reasons not to do it. Hey you should buy your dog a treat lol good luck
Yay! 2 days....I was glad you made it thru yesterday and as everyone said...the dog knew better......probably doesn't like being left outside while you go in store..hahaha..does he have to be left outside?
Good luck at the Dr. tommorow and make sure to tell them what a huge tempatation you got thru...it will further illustrate that you are "struggling" to stay away....I am immensly impressed by your determination...because regardless of your "pup" YOU DID IT....you could have very easily pulled the dog in the wrong direction
hi sharon "the look in my daughters eyes means so much"...Wow...I remember the first time my son was laying on my bed in 2005 when I first got sober..and he was about 15...and he was talking to me...and I REALIZED I was LISTENING..and also looking at him in the eyes..
I will never forget that feeling...and it is a feeling that I can reflect back on now that you brought it up...to keep me sober even today...
So amazing for you that you have a week...when I had about a week back then I started writing down things I noticed that were different about me...like the example with your daughter...my skin color..my energy level...my willingness to try new things...my wonder about what the trees and sky looked like...its all amazing...all good stuff.
So happy for you too.
Well done! Don't let the Dr convince you you don't need medication help though....just because you have managed to abstain for a week. Be persistent. Good luck. Let us know how you fare.xx
She did know better! Yes I have left her outside before. We were still a bit away from the off licence but she must of known 
I really hope she gives me the prescription. My husband is coming with me & he is generally more insistant than me when it comes to things. He doesn't know about last night but I did tell him I missed the drink.
Thank you Misssy!! xx
Fantastic you are a full week sober!! Yes I am the same it hit me early evening & if I get passed that I seem to be ok. I'm quite content at the moment & looking forward to a good night's sleep.
Keep the thought of your kids in your head. I am doing the same with my son. As for my dog she deserves all the treats but she isn't well today the poor dote 
Thank you Sharon !!
Any tips on what to say? What not to say? My husband is coming with me. I know if she doesn't prescribe I will be trying elsewhere as Nalmefene is available in Ireland known as Selincro.
I will of course let you know xxx
Good luck and I hope you get your prescription
It will be hard but just be honest, to be fair there may be things that your husband doesnt know but he obviously wants to support you. So even if you think he will be a bit shocked at some of the things you say it is better for YOU to be honest. I have made the mistake of telling bits and pieces but not the full story, it doesnt really help you get better or your relationship. Look at today as a fresh start. Just take it day by day, there has to be hope for all of us. Your husband sounds like a good man. Wish you all the best again for today, let me know how it goes. xxxx
Sorry Sadie, I have only just seen this. Think Im too late as you said your appointment was early. Great that your husband is coming. I hope you will still be able to explain your struggles honestly.
Basically I went with a lot of literature about it. I even said I'd drink everyday if that was the only way they would give me medication....the reason being that they are only allowed to prescribe it as a daily tablet (half a day for first week). I myself am going to use TSM as this has the best results. I will PM you the 2 links I was given to explain why and gives the clinication trials results.
Well guys just back from the docs. Feeling disappointed 😔. She hadn't heard of Selincro she only knew of Campral. She looked it up & Nax Came up which she didn't seem keen on. I explained Selincro is what is available in Ireland. She wants to research it more & make a decision & ive to come back to her on Monday next week & she said by then I will be nearly 2 weeks sober. She said I'm a week now so just keep going. I tried explaining yes I can keep going with that but this will change my attitude towards alcohol. It will still be waiting if I abstain whereas with the meds the crutch will be removed. I don't think she will prescribe. Next week she'll say you have done 14 days keep going. It's not 14 days I binge drink at the weekend not everyday.
We might go to a Polish clinic as my husband is Polish & it can be easier to get a prescription there. I just want the meds so I can start treatment.
This forum has helped so much this week for me to be honest. I was content enough last night in the end, silent witness and a cup of tea for me lol
The kids faces when their happy is amazing, way better than that first hit of drink in your mouth...there is no comparison.
Hope the wee dog gets better. What age is your son?
Was thinking about going for a run today...feel quite a bit physically stronger. How are things with you today Missy?
Oh Sadie, I am so sorry. It took me weeks to get my prescription too. At the end I had to go back for another appointment and that last week was sooo long. Yes try the Polish clinic.
I have PMed you explanations and links so you can take these along next time and anywhere you try. You may have to pretend to take it as they have prescribed.....although that seems to get some results, not as high a percentage as TSM.....and then do it quietly by The Sinclair Method.
Your husband can read these links too to help him understand why you may have to or chose to take it differently to the way it is prescribed. Let me know if you found the links etc helpful.
I really really appreciate that Sharon. I will have a look at the links in a while for sure & show my husband too.
He is going to call the Polish clinic as a next step. After that it'll be trying to purchase online but I'm not sure if anywhere will send to Ireland . I may have had a better chance if I had lied & said I was drinking every day.
Many thanks again xxx
I know....stupid that you have to pretend to be a daily drinker in order to get help to avoid being one. Frustrating. Keep persevering......it has taken me months for anyone to take me seriously. I am having counselling too and to be honest she put in a 'good word for me'.