Some questions answered please scared

Around 3 weeks ago I realised I was pushing myself too hard, missing sleep, eating badly, edgy. I have suffered anxiety in the past. Mine manifests itself in my nervous system lighting up and causing pain to my back and hands while the attack occurs. I know a fair amount about the subject. Well a week ago it all went bang, I remember the exact time stress caused the reaction and the attacks started.

At the moment is seems any stress, eating or facing situations are setting it off

Been advised diazepam which I know is a terrible drug if used for a long time but what choice do I have. I am trying to keep busy but it's getting increasingly hard. Having a lot of headaches, I am trying to eat but I am really struggling, I understand my system is running on high alert and it needs to calm but I could really do with some advise.

well i think you realising its anxiety itself is 50% of the battle won..so now you just need to practice mindfulness to let your mind off on the physical symptoms..like try and be aware of your surroundings and see the colors,describe to yourself in your head what you see and smell etc..this make your brains have soemthing to think about and your physical symptoms will vanish over time..

I know your gonna slap me but I am using some alcohol which is really bad but it does get me off but it's killing the mornings

You really shouldnt be using alcohol. If you need help, post on this forum for advice, see a doctor, or send me a PM

All the best!

Bless u. It's difficult but do all u can to reassure yourself.keep a diary is good as u can offload ,and if u look back on any past notes they may help to move forward.