Hi Donna,
Sorry to hear you are struggling & low, things will get better.
You have to remember and accept a few points:
1. Your back has compressed the nerves & pinching them for some time, the nerves are still traumatised & squashed down, they will slowly recover some of their original shape and the signals they send will lessen. (& hopefully will go or become bearable)
2. You have been through an invasive procedure, your immune system & subconscious will be reacting to that & will be over sensitised to the changes that have suddenly occurred.
There will be an increase in internal swelling/ pressure & unusual movement. All will antagonise the original issues for a while, until they settle down, be patient.
3. You have been in pain a long time & your brain is programed to expect that pain, it will look for what is missing, (like tinnitus is a loss of a specific range of sound & the brain creates a white noise while attempting to find what is missing)
The pain level will probably be lower, but your brain will amplify this to try & recreate the habitual nerve signals in your the previously known state, your brain is almost addicted to the pain. - It will take time for your brain to reprogram to the new you.
4. It’s been 5 weeks, you are going to have to completely start again on regaining core stability, mobility, & stamina, the surgery has reset everything to your lowest base line.
It is going to hurt, to do things you did before, possible even for things that didn’t hurt before, but slowly, little steps, patience & rebuild.
Take the meds & do the hot / cold/ supported position, all the things you know work to elevate your symptoms post activity.
5. Your meds will affect your outlook, expect it & in your ‘up moments’ do something’s that makes you laugh, take the p**s out of your partner, watch films that make YOU LAUGH TOGETHER - humour is the key to a positive mental state, & you need to extend that state of mind to heal as quickly as possible.
6. You have the rest of your life to rebuild & set the bench mark you are going to live by, no need to sprint to the finish line. Try jogging, you see more of the scenery on the way… :-)
You are now bionic: Jamie Sommers, welcome to the club…
Love & luck
Steve Austin’s short, fat, limping, ugly twin brother