Ever since I was younger I've suffered from anxiety, all routed in the fear of death, everything comes back to it and so if I give almost anything any thought at all it manages to trigger something, whether chest aches or I get cold shakes despite getting increasingly hot, or my least favourite, depersonalisation which tends to last for about a month or two every time it occurs. And so despite over a decade of this I still don't know what to do. I feel like I'm expected to keep my life together just as anyone else would but its just that little bit harder and I can't explain it to people and so I come across as weak and unfocused but I just do not know how to hold it together. Anyone have any advice on how to manage to succeed in school and work and socially just as if there was nothing wrong? Would be highly appreciated, thank you 
If you don't mind me asking how old are you?
Same here. Back in 2010 I was at a football game and out of no where I started thinking about dead people and the fact they will never come back so hard n deep to the point it scared me, I haven’t been the same since it’s like everyday I wake up in fear and think something is gonna happen to me, the more I try not to think about it the more I think about it no matter how hard I try I can’t get the night out my head I think I let it take over my mind😩 some days I’m good some days I’m not... a few months ago I joined this patient anxiety/depression etc group and shared my story I got a lot of feedback and a lot of ppl said it sound like anxiety traumatic depression and so on...if I can stop overthinking and think positive I think I will actual be ok n feel better, starting tmrw imma start eating healthier and drinking lemon water and meditating to see if things get any better and imma also go get blood work done to make sure I’m 100 percent healthy. You’re definitely not alone I’ll let you know if some of the things I’m trying helps or not!