Strange abcences/attacks

Mental health
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Hi guys, I'm really hoping someone can help. Since I was about 11, I've been experiencing very strange episodes that are taking over my life, I've had scans & been put on all kinds of meds which haven't helped, I remain un-diagnosed.

I have no known trigger, Or pattern. I can wake up from sleep having these, have 7 in one day then none for a week.

So here it is. I never know when I'm going into one. When I do, I am in full control of my body & I can speak but I usually say very strange things that make no sense, and I'm not at all aware of what I've said after. I usually talk through the whole thing. I have symptoms of panic, heavy breathing, thinking my heart is racing when it's not. I'm usually quite scared/ upset or I cry.

When they're ending sometimes I wretch uncontrollably, and when I come out of one I stutter uncontrollably & usually have no idea where I am or what I'm doing. They do seem to also affect my memory in general.

I also went through a phase when having them. That during one I would curl up in the corner of a room as I was terrified that someone was coming to get me. That doesn't seem to happen anymore.

On days/ weeks when they are very bad, I tend to feel on edge & un safe all the time, like someone is coming to get me. I never feel like myself. When they very first began they weren't as complex. I used to just go into panic because I would suddenly feel like I was in a dream & nothing around me was real. They were in short spells but still had no trigger or pattern. I'm now 25 & they have been getting worse.

A while back I had a whole year without any! Until one day walking through town I had one, I rang my mum & burst into tears in public.

I've had cbt therapy, brain scans, beta blockers and alternative therapies.

Epilepsy has been ruled out.

I feel like I'm always running into a wall,

I've been fired from jobs because of them,

People look at me like I'm faking. They are completely awful and take over my life. I read up on NEAD and they sound similar but I'm still not sure.

Sorry for the super long post guys but I would love any support and any tips on this if you recognise it & tips on managing bad general anxiety ❤

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Those symptoms seem really tough.  I recommend you to continue to see your therapist.  And POSSIBLY talk to them about anti depressants.  Because it seems that a lot of your worry is taking an emotional toll on you on top of a physical one.  

If you don't want to take those because of side effects, I recommend a supplement called St. John's Wort, which increases serotonin.

You can also look up L-Theanine, which helps calm you naturally.  It will not have a very pronounced effect, but it can be another tool for you.

I recommend also looking for books about anxiety and panic.  That was one of the biggest game changers for me.  I just looked at the reviews and picked a book.

God Bless you on your journey! 

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That seems absolutely horrible. If you have ruled out medical conditions like epilepsy, I would say These sound like very extreme forms of panic attacks. The feeling unsafe and on edge is common surrounding panic attacks. I would try to treat this as anxiety as I really think that's what it is. God bless you 

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Thankyou for the reply.

I'm not currently seeing a therapist, when I am set up with one through my doctor, they immeadiatly suspend the service if you have to cancel or re-schedule even once. They ended up fogbif me an online course which was no comfort at all.

I like the idea of those alternative supplements & would definitely give them a try! And m definitely open to taking out or buying books on it.

I have been on anti depressants before, I think Sertraline. But the side effects were too much for me. I have also been on calms and beta blockers (propranolol), these had no effect.

For the past week I have suddenly stopped remembering my dreams as well which is certainly not like me. It's also not helping that I'm incredibly unhappy in my job at the moment and constantly worrying as the managers are always messing things up. But I have been applying for others!

Thankyou again x

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Has anyone ever recommended a sleep study on you? Ask about it.

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Hi.

It is horrible and can make people act funny around me. Only my family, boyfriend & close friends know how to act around me when it happens.

I certainly get anxiety bey badly, sometimes getting myself into tears when I worry about something & create a situation in my head that's not even happened.

I'm seeing my doctor again on the 20th so I'm going to have a firm word with him about getting it sorted.

Thankyou for the reply ❤

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I don't think so. I was asked if I could fall asleep during my EEG but I couldn't.

What is a sleep study?

Thankyou for the reply x

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I just recommend a therapist because when you have one, you can feel more comforted that you have someone who knows about the physical aspects of your condition more than you do.

Yes please do give them a try.  L-Theanine, St. John's Wort, and I forgot to mention, 200mg magnesium citrate and 200mg calcium.  Magnesium and calcium taken together relaxes the muscles.  I find that it works well for me, but L theanine doesnt.  BUT everyone is different so please give those a try.

I also forgot to mention, Vitamin B complex is a great great stress reliever.  You might be lacking that in your diet, therefore increasing your anxiousness.  You don't notice the effects right away, but its just another tool to hopefully help at least a bit if not a lot.

Out of all those supplements, I recommend to you to read about it in popular panic books.  I have gotten in trouble from this forum for promoting a specific book, but I just say to look up highly rated and reviewed books on panic. 

God Bless you!