Hello everyone, compliments of the season to all. so im on my second month anxiety / insomia free. Have had no reason to take ativan but for the last 2 weeks i got bad news from my country of birth where 2 well known ppl in my community killed themselves from hanging all of a sudden every time i close my mind a bad thought crosses my mind. like im hanging too. I AM NOT SUICIDAL!!!!!!! but i have been battling this for a while... anytime someone i know dies i feel like i will die the same way can anyone help with that? is there anything i can do to stop this? and to anyone having a difficult time i send hugs and kisses but most of all prayers.
These are OCD intrusive thoughts my friend. I have experienced similar thoughts. It is your fear of the thoughts that keep them nagging at you. If you sought therapy for them they would have you do exposure therapies. Maybe they would have you make drawings or record voice messages about how you are going to die that way. You need to teach your mind to accept the possibility that it could happen and stop fearing it. It takes time, but remember, it is just a thought and means nothing! I had these thoughts and others and I always put them behind me by accepting them and alleviating the fear.
I hope you have a wonderful holiday and relief and happiness in the new year 