struggling.

I suffer from Panic attacks, GAD, PTSD, OCD and Depression. The past few days I have suffered from breathlessness, my stress levels have been through the roof as well, its really starting too freak me out, I haven't been sleeping properly and my appetite is quite poor at the moment. I feel lightheaded, my heart starts to pound really hard and my throat feels like its about to close up, and have been really fatigued. Is it possible for all these things to make you so ill, 24/7? I see a councillor once a week, and I'm not on medication. I've been under a lot if pressure lately and am struggling quite a bit on how to deal with this right now, its like I take 1step forward and 2 steps back. Anyone else on here have similar experience? X

I also find it hard too get into my head that its just "panic/anxiety" I always think the worse thing is going too happen. I've suffered from these on/off for years, you'd think I'd be use to it, but its never nice whenever it happens. sad

You're not alone im having a not so good day. I have a one year old and an amazing husband i feel like I'm dying but i will not let this get the best of me. It just really messes up my day sometimes. My family is so important to me i can't loose them sad.

I have  no advice to offer, only the compassion of a fellow-sufferer, a pretty new one at that. I'm feeling all the same things as you and am prone to bouts of catatrosphic thinking. Every so often the mental sky clears and I see that in fact my situation isn't that bad (I have a lot to deal with, but they are things that can be dealt with - or could be dealt with if I didn't have this anxiety!!!!) I have moments of reprieve, but then the panicking-hamster-on-a-treadmill starts up again. I got sleeping pills at the clinic and they do help because at least I know I can sleep. I am seeing my doctor on Tuesday and will definitely consider medication. I suspect my anxiety is related to my situation, and if I can get the anxiety under control, I can sort out the situation. I don't know if you are in the same boat? I am afraid of making rushed or ill-thought-out decisions due to the anxiety.  Therapy/counselling is not an option for me as I am shortly moving abroad.

I'm sorry to hear that. I've let it get the best of me today, its a beautiful day and I've literally locked myself away from everyone and everything and have just been drawing. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for us both.sad

Thanks for your reply my counselor is awesome but i take lexapro for anxiety and it somewhat works. Hopefully everything will be ok

Thanks for replying. The mind is such a powerful thing, it makes you think all sorts. I really thought I was a goner an hour ago lol what kind of symptoms do you two get? X

Racing thoughts, catastrophic thinking, cannot sleep or eat. Everything tastes strange. There are a couple of things that help. Any constructive activity, like cooking or cleaning or decluttering, makes me feel calmer, although I tend to speed through my chores and make careless mistakes. I also find that listening to something really anodyne on the radio helps me fall asleep. Gardener's Questioner Time and the Shipping News are two really good programs to relax by. 

it is good to see a senior phystry doctor and to hv medication for depression. Then ur gad, ptso, ocd all will go. But u dont want to see a phystry and dont want take a depression medication, u can go for counceling it will take time or it depends on ur illness. the god will give a good way.

My family and I have been through so much and I panick to the point i fear so much. It's just like I'm an emotional shacking mess

I'm seeing a specialist at the beginning of next month too look deeper into things and the topic of medication will be discussed, I do feel like I need to be on meds its just finding the right ones. I was on fluoxtine for years that turned things around but last year my body started to reject it they tried me on a bunch of different meds but I has having bad reactions too them, despite everything that has been happening I do feel better without them if that makes sense lol! 

Its all incredibly frustrating and confusing at times, sometimes I feel like theres no hope at all, no matter what I seem to do its always lerking underneath.

I'm so sorry to hear that, I'm sure everything will start coming together in time, just try to stay strong (easier said than done I know) Despite everything I do believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere. Take care. Xx

I was feeling in a real state earlier - hopeless, like you said -  but then my son and I got busy cleaning his room and throwing out a bunch of clutter. It's astonishing how much better it has made me feel. They say exercise can really help a lot, so I don't know if that's possible for you but maybe just going out and walking briskly for a while can help lower the anxiety levels? I wonder sometimes if maybe some anxiety stems from a feeling that everything is spiralling out of controi, so tidying up the room helped me feel as if things were under control a bit?

Sorry to hear you're suffering. Have you seen your doctor lately. Have you got Hyperthyroidism? Also have a look at the this site's post on the main causes of fatigue. All the best.

Thanks so much

I use to be a really athlietic person before all this started, I did Kararte and Swimming twice a week, I still do if I can. Before everything got worse I would take my dog out for a walk or just go out for long walks by myself to refresh my mind, Or running sometimes helped. I think sometimes when you let things get on top of you it all of a sudden becomes overwhelming and a little hard.

I think I'm struggling to except all of this, 2 years ago I was happy, healthy didn't really have a care in the world and now I feel like everything is being taken away piece by piece, I think a lot of what I'm feeling is losing my grandad suddenly and then work started to become stressful and had a lot of trouble of some people there, and I'm trying to deal with so much all at once that everything has become so crippling too me. I feel like I'm in a nightmare.. sad

Yes. It is absolutely possible for anxiety symptoms to make you feel ill. You feel like you are spinning out of control and that your health is slipping through your fingers like water.

its good to hear that you will be seeing a psychiatrist in a short while. Being assessed by a professional is vital. At the end of the day, I cannot tell you what is the problem. That's a psychiatrist's job.

Are you UK based? You could try approaching the charity MIND for some counselling/advice.

Try focusing on something. I find adult colouring books help. I find the colours and patterns take me to a place where I can't feel the hell in my head.x

Thank you for your reply. Its funny that you mention that, my mother has said the same thing. My grandmother has an overactive Thyroid, and do have most of the symtoms, I especially have a major problem with heat and have had this little rash on my wrist for about a year. I have mentioned this to my doctor but he dismissed it, and just said its Anxiety. I think a second opinion would be best though? 

Thank you for your reply. Yes I am based in the UK, thats something I've been looking into also - the Mind charity. 

I love drawing, so that will help massively also, thank you so much. X

I suffer exactly the same Folks. Most days I think I'm going to pass out and dy. SomedayS it gets so bad I'm a anxious wreck I shut the world off and won't go out etc . I find keeping occupied and positive reading helps A little. When I'm occupied my head doesn't over thjnk aas much. I take mirtazapine but if anything the side effects have jusr made me worse. I fear all sorts. Today's a rough day as i feel little run down so my thoughts are all over and obsessed thst I'm going go pass out and dy. I shake and get scared standing up when my heart races. It's stupid aa I've had this a wee while and still ok haha its like Tring to tell my self I'm ok but deep down I can't believe it for some reason. It's annoying as missing out on life at the moment. I'm waiting on cbt I've been before and helped a little but I feel it's best Tring to self teach and fix My self. I'm learning it's all just thoughts and anxity making us feel scared etc then creating the physical symptoms from our reactions to the thoughts. In time hopefully this will help And fear it less . Since I started putting my scary symptoms in my anxity box I'm gettung little strstronger each day and doing more and more

But some days are harder than others as anxity loves a tired over thinkng mind.

I guess it's all about changing our reactions to our thoughts and just not latching on to the Scarey ones and letting them have there space and float by . I keep telling my self my thoughts csnt actually hurt me. They are just stealing my happiness. Each thought carries equal weight it's up to us what we latch on to. They say mindfulness is fab as it let's you learn to think nothing and relax. I've tried it but I have such a over active mind I can't concentrate on it too long. So I opt to keep busy and just try let go of my scary thoughts as they can't hurt us the silly things haha anyways juer just want you to know that i know what your going though and thjngs will get easier urs it's only temp remember and you get stronger everyday just keep pushin. :-)