I'm drinking again. 1 bottle of white wine Thursday night, 2 bottles ystd. Now 3/4 of way through a bottle. Have to stop as got daughters graduation next Friday :-(
Hello Paper FaIry, don't be too hard on yoursElf. How long were you sober?
Susan x
4 months then a 2 day binge. 2 months then a binge and another one.
Has anythng happened to upset you?
Susan x
Do you get along well with your daughter and does she know about your drinking?
if you can maybe just work toward being sober for 6 days, one at a time, just to know that you saw her graduate and remember it.
susan xx
Where is your daughter graduating from Paper fairy?
Thanks for replays. She lived with my alcoholism for a few years.
Hello paper fairy
Well done so far 
This is simply just another blip !! The pure fact that you have posted on here means how determined you are ! I have done exactly the same the last couple of weeks . I asked my daughter tonight to please help me the next few days in not drinking so much !
Keep posting on here for support and try your best to keep your drinking levels to a minimum . You can do it
Take good care xx
Not so easy to cope with it seems and I suggest to rethink it all...perhaps less wine the next few days and then do the graduation on Friday feeling great?
I agree with Robin Just try your best to drink less paper fairy the next few days
I'm doing it with you
You can do it xx
Thanks xx
Ok. Good to hear that! Stay in touch and thanks for your support :-)
My son got married a few weeks ago and I told him not to worry I'd be sober and not let him down. Week before the wedding started drinking as I felt really anxious and couldn't sleep. Somehow or other I realised it was his big day and did I want to let him down. Sheer willpower got me through the five days leading up to the wedding without any alcohol at all. The hug and praise he gave me in my wedding finery will stay with me for ever. So paper fairy keep thinking of your daughter, be proud of her and enjoy her graduation sober. Not saying it will be easy as it was sheer hell, but after seeing the wedding photos with me sober and enjoying an important day gave me a huge sense of achievement. You can do it and be proud of her and yourself. I don't think I could forgive myself if I'd carried on drinking. Good luck and keep posting
Praise to Vicky Lou most certainly and well done! keep going
Thanks Robin for your kind words. The mere fact I achieved something has given me a buzz that no amount of alcohol has ever done. I've also got a grandson due in October which has given me a real incentive. Who'd want to leave their baby with someone who had a couple of glasses of wine most afternoons? Trust has to be earned and I want to be involved and help out.
Thank you so much vickylou for your post. It's helped me so much. Well done on your achievement and thanks for inspiring me to see sense !
I hope you remain ok. A graduation and weddings are major events in your child's life and should be happy occasions. In my case I kept repeating to myself son or drink every time I felt like a drink. It's a case of putting your kids before yourself. Not easy, but you can do it. Just think what an achievement. Honestly it's given me a huge buzz and I feel so much better when I think what could have happened. Keep posting and good luck
Hello again paper Fairy
Just wanted to say , stay positive
xx
Hi paper, it's looks like its anxiety that's causing your drinking? Just thinking about having to go to the graduation is probably causing enough anxiety? That's my problem, anxiety levels. Booze works a treat, but my Dutch courage ' couple' always turns me into Thor( well I think it does) lol. I sometimes use lorazepam just to be able to go someplace, then realise when I get there, my fear was unfounded. Daft but true. Good luck👍
Good reply Roger!! I fully understand the situation about being apprehensive or nervous and then DRINK DRINK DRINK...trying not to is not always easy or loosing your inhibitions since you are normally shy...enough about this and all the best to Paper Fairy and yourself.