I've had anxiety issues probably since childhood...actually, definitely since then. Got diagnosed when I was mid twenties during a rocky relationship that ended up ending. I used to be a drinker, until pancreatitis nearly ended me, so I ended it. I still take any opiate I can get my hands on. My biggy Codiene. I'm on all sorts of pills for various things as well. I now have a beautiful girlfriend and son, but I just can't shake my addictive personality. This is damaging my mood severely and I feel like I'm down a hole, in a job that I hate and ruining everything good I have, by focusing on the bad. I just need to get this out. I am 31 and feel about 80.
I can fully understand because I have my own addiction. It sounds like you e had a difficult time to. Have you tried cutting it down? Is just tablets your on?
I don't know how you feel,but I know how your girlfriend feels. My partner and mother to my kids has an addiction,but her's is spending,and I'd love some advice. I've never met such a deceitful person in my life,the things she'd done to cover her tracks are amazing. I'd leave her in a flash if it wasn't for the kids. Sorry for hijacking your thread Addict21,this is the first thread I've read on here about addiction.
I can't give you much help matey,but what I can tell you that if you don't knock your drug abuse on the head soon,you may never come off them.I was a small kid in the 80's,and I remember drugs ravaging the area where most of my family lived. The family memebers who became addicts are either dead or are still hooked. I very rarely see them now,but when I do,I ask if they're going to try and get clean,but they openly admit they won't,because they're in their 50's now and they don't see the point,they've resigned themselves to being a drug addict for the rest of their lives. What's more frightening is that their children,who are my age have taken the same road as their parents.
I've had a rough few years, but then again we all have them. I just need to come up with a plan. I have tried to reduce before and am going back to addiction counsellor. I buy the soluble ones.
This is the best thing. I you take alot? How do you feel when your trying to stop completely? You'll feel a little crappy, but only for a few days. Opiates dampen to your feelings and emotions.im sure you just want it all back. If yiu entirely ready yiu need to fight with all yiur might. No body wants to be ruled by drugs, no body wants to be a prisoner. I hope it works out for you.
Sorry about mistakes people, on my phone and I can barely see what I'm writing because of stupid advertising across the screen.
Dear Friend,
You are an amazing person to come and speak it out here and going through what you have written, it feels as though you love the relationship that you are in and the family that you are, This, is the Best thing to have and you should hold on to it as strong as you can.
Remember, it is not your addiction to drugs, but you are addicted to the life that you have, and your fear of hurting your loved ones is what has brought you to speak up about it.
First, Let us go through some introspection and viewpoints.
Do the Drugs make you feel violent or any other rash behaviour according to you/your loved ones.
Do the drugs reduce the anxiety that you have in the sense, do they make your day bearable or do you take it for fear of Slipping into anxiety.
Do you suffer from any constipation due to use of Codeine, or any other side effects, (Since you mentioned opiates, I have spoken of main side effect seen in Codeine )
When you retrospect your answers from your viewpoint and the vewpoint of your loved ones, lookat the positives in your life, this is the anchor that holds you in the storm of Anxiety. During an Anxiety or Panic, you feel as though you are losing control, you feel like giving up and you would feel scared. But your loved ones and the positive memories with them in your life WILL keep you strong.
Speaking to an Addiction counsellor and reviewing with them will be necessary.
You also have me as a friend.
Whenever you start a counselling program, remember, You are doing it for person who is worth it. YOURSELF.... YOU ARE WORTH Every day. and you know it. You make a difference in so many peoples lives and You are a good person.
Dear Friend,
Hope you are feeling better now,
Relax and enjoy the weekend, Let me know how you are doing.