I’ve been dealing with severe anxiety since 7th grade. I’m currently 14 years old, and my anxiety has grown to full agoraphobia. It used to be I had a lot of trouble staying in my class due to severe nausea(panic) attacks, then I had trouble even going to school, now I can barely leave my house for anything. It feels like a “safe haven” here, like if anything goes wrong I’m in the comfort of my home with people who I can go to for help, who understand me. I haven’t had any nausea attacks when I’m home, expect for when I am told that I have to go to school, which usually ended with an angry parent giving up trying to force their crying kid out of the bathroom. But, I was supposed to go to the clinic to get something checked out, I think there was something wrong with my ear. I hadn’t slept the night before, since I have annoying insomnia, and I started to feel dizzy and nauseas in the waiting room. I told my parental, which they said to hang in for a bit longer. Eventually, I had to go home because I was feeling so unwell and they were taking forever to call us in. I get home and try to sleep, but I’m so uncomfortable and dizzy. All of a sudden, though I’m lying down trying to sleep, this wave of the most uncomfortable feeling ever rushes through my whole body and lingers, it felt like chills and being dizzy at the same time. My heart was pounding, and I was barely able to go downstairs and call my parent from outside. I sat in the bathroom, crying, shaking, feeling like I was having a heart attack and was going to die. I almost wanted to go to the hospital. My parent coaxed me and helped me calm down, but the whole experience was so terrifying. I had thought it was due to lack of sleep. After it was over, (lasted about ten or so minutes before I was able to leave the bathroom) I was able to sleep. And that’s when my agoraphobia started. Couldn’t leave the house, got sick whenever I tried because I had flashbacks of my days at school, being sick. Btw, my school experience was pretty traumatic, was always in the restroom, throwing up, shaking, calling my parent to pick me up. But as soon as I got home I was fine. It just got worse after that, till the point I couldn’t even go to school anymore. Anyways, sorry for getting off track. I was fine of another of those “sleep-induced” panic attacks for about a month, up until about a week ago. I was told I had to go to school, and for once I wasn’t nauseas about it. I was getting ready, when I got hit with another attack. Jsyk, i had a full nights rest for once (my sleep pattern is usually normal at least three days a month), so I wasn’t expecting this. The uncomfortable chills and dizzy feeling, heart racing, in the bathroom silently praying it to go by quickly. And it did, and I thought it was going to be okay, until it hit AGAIN, just as I was leaving the bathroom. I wasn’t worried about the day ahead in anyway, I had very little anxiety about it actually. I didn’t go that day due to my double attack. It honestly felt like a heart attack, and I’m worried I might have an actual issue with my heart. Ever since those last attacks, whenever I lie down at night, and ONLY at night, even if I’m not planning on sleeping that night, I’ll get really short breath and trouble getting it into my lungs, and every time the first thing I think of and fear is heart attack. It never gets farther than being short of breath, but it’s become quite a hassle. Is it wise to get checked out? Could I have an underlying condition that could be fatal if left alone?
Note: sorry for how long this is. I tend to always get a bit too into the details.