April. Desperate! So much so that I went to A&E this morning. I turned up at my GP surgery a day too soon in my haste to be seen.
In the meantime, I have become depressed. Big mistake admitting to that. But it scared me, (scares me now), I have never experienced actual depression before. I've been low of course, we all are sometimes. Sad, tearful, fed up; ****ed off. But depression is different. There doesn't appear to be anything I can actually DO about it.
Anyway I digress, and, in case I forget later, thanks for listening.
A&E were kind ans sympathetic, but were unable to do anything for me as my condition is long standing, dating back to January and my first GP visit with Headache/Nausea/Sweating/Weakness. The fatigue goes further back than I can remember and precedes by years my diagnosis of PMR. They called my GP surgery and made me an emergency appointment.
Back at the surgery, I saw another doctor who doesn't know me. (Though my GP was on site). She thinks I'm depressed, (well I did tell her I was depressed). She told me that I was probably depressed before, because people with depression always feel pain more acutely and get tension headaches.
When my GP found no change by stopping Calcichew and Atorvastatin, he has said that it's 'wear and tear' my age, lifestyle and stress. He did say that he would increase my steroids if I wanted him to. What I want, is to know what's wrong with me!
I gave that diagnosis 2 weeks, but I'm desperate now. Back to see him tomorrow, telling him that I have an appointment on Wednesday with the GP who diagnosed PMR for a second opinion. Fingers crossed.
Just came on here for a rant really. I'm feeling like a fool. And very Ill.