Thanks for that. I called the help #, but being from Ontario, he really didn't understand. I live in a small city, more like a town. I went to the hospital for an overdose, got that taken care of, and was told never to return for psychiatric reasons, by the head psychiatrist. The guy on the help line, said you have used 911 a lot. I said never, my husband carried me in, it was to late to pump so ICU, antidote for narcotics I had taken, prescribed and fluids to pee them out. We have 2 shrinks in Belleville. There is no CBT or even talk therapy. When my last psychiatrist retired about, gee it feels so long ago, but maybe 5 years ago, he would even take time to call you back, if you were having difficulty. I drove 60 miles each way to see him. Now there is a shortage. Even in the larger city. Here they see you once, which he did, did not change my meds, and said now I turn you over to your physician. The help line guy said to go there, I told him I did make an appointment but can't get in for another 3 months. Free health care is what people call it. But Ontario is taxed so high. Over a year ago, the person in charge of the medical fund, took away a big chunk of their salaries. Pardon me for saying this, but she is such a horses butt. I would describe her differently, but I shouldn't sear on this forum. So, so unfair. Now we have doctors moving out of province. She has now instituted a new tax, and now has shared with Ontarions, that there will be a 13% tax on that.
If there was just some one to talk to. I feel I have no right to be on this earth. I really believe to most, they would get over it real fast.
I really appreciate what you wrote and have looked at it long and hard. I told my husband I might go away for the weekend, which is the place I used to go see my psychiatrist. Money is tough, part of what mental health took away from me, an awesome career of nursing, but being so frail from my eating disorder, I just fell too ill to keep on going. I was always, Sandy the nurse, now I am Sandy, what is she doing here?
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.